I give up... This life is not going to work out.

[nicocrb]

I've gotten to the point that continuing this life really doesn't matter to anyone when it concerns me. I've only had about 6 months in my entire life feeling as if I'm going to live a happy successful life. And because people didn't like my choices eventually started abandoning me. And literally everyone I've been around are Fairweather friends and lovers. At one point I was happy because I was mostly isolated and on my games with my illusionary friends. And I had a job, was going to college, etc. Then I got with someone that despite not being perfect, well, knew how to deal with me. Now they've given the fuck up on me with most of everyone I thought I could care for.

Everyone shows their true colors at the end... I'm done... Honestly if I could have done it all over again... I'd still be on my moms couch... And all this shit would be a horrid nightmare that I woke up from...

 

[the_summoning]

I feel the same way. I'm going to be alone at my apartment til the end of the week I really should do it tonight or tomorrow when I'm off work. I just don't have a real plan or method. All I have at home are cleaning chemicals unfortunately.

 

[F@#$]

Yeah, I've given up too. A long time ago. It not worth the effort.