i fucking failed.

[Ladyybugged]

this is a follow up to my prev thread, the one fucking thing that was supposed to work just fucking didn't. i'm such a fucking failure and i feel so fucking miserable. i literally had everything ready but something HAD TO go wrong with the fucking regulator at the last moment and the gas started leaking out. fuck this. i hate this, i can't do this anymore. i was so relieved for a while hoping that today would be my last. i'm heavily considering going on the roof of my apartment and jumping off right now. i really didn't want a painful death, but i guess i have no other option now. i guess i'll be jumping soon.

 

[3FailedAttemptss]

I'm sorry to hear that you didn't find the peace you were looking for and that things didn't go your way.

Failed attempts happen QwQ But I would think twice about doing something impulsive. I don't know your apartment building, but it might be worth checking if it's even high enough, etc.

 

[Irisse]

I'm so sorry this happened, I wish that you find your peace and your suffering ends.

 

[theboy]

I feel u

 

[Terrible_Life]

I'm so sorry that must feel horrible to plan everything so carefully and even probably playing it in your mind many times and then it fails. Also for an attempt I think people do concentrate a lot of their still existing energy for this final act. Again i am so sorry for you:(
But please don't do anything impulsively it could lead to horrible consequences. Instead calm down and search for another method here on sasu if you want to die 100%

 

[FadingSnowFake]

I'm sorry and sending love. I don't know about regulators, is it something you can fix for another time? Jumping just sounds so impulsive if not planned as alternative. I hope you can find time to re-assess and find calmness.

 

[Ladyybugged]

I don't know your apartment building, but it might be worth checking if it's even high enough, etc.

is 4 stories and a concrete road enough to be fatal? please tell me.

 

[Liebestod]

is 4 stories and a concrete road enough to be fatal? please tell me.

Don't think so, it's better to not end up a quadriplegic.

 

[fromange]

is 4 stories and a concrete road enough to be fatal? please tell me.

It can be, but just off a ladder could be too, if you hit the right spot. I've heard 10+ to be safe (haha) but please do your own research. I think you can find statistics of %.

 

[eggsausagerice]

is 4 stories and a concrete road enough to be fatal? please tell me.

don't jump girl. you'll survive that or end up paralyzed. i'm so sorry that today didn't work out

 

[itsgone2]

is 4 stories and a concrete road enough to be fatal? please tell me.

That's not going to work unfortunately. Many people have mentioned this being their weekend. I think you're the first attempt. It's all so tragic.

 

[Greasyhair]

You must feel horrible so to be denied your peace and such a failure but please try have mercy on yourself, killing yourself goes against your every biological function. You are brave for attempting. Many people need multiple attempts, try to view this as step along the path. Like others said you need to center yourself, and not take any too harsh of decisions that may lead to further misery.

 

[setspiritfree]

Don't think so, it's better to not end up a quadriplegic.

I agree with this, 4 stories might not do it. As we all know the human body is resilient. Unfortunately.

 

[Macedonian1987]

is 4 stories and a concrete road enough to be fatal? please tell me.

As a guy who researched for suicide methods in the last 10 years I will tell you: Don't do this. There is a very high chance that you will fail and end up suffering immensely. Broken spine, broken bones, paralyzed, locked in syndrome, ending up like a vegetable, you name it... DON'T DO IT.

 

[corpse]

I'm sorry I didn't see your goodbye thread, but I hope you are doing okay, considering the circumstances.

 

[setspiritfree]

I think we may have lost her. If this is the case, this is the first time I have lost someone on here that I was following. I keep signing on hoping that she would be on here or a recent post. But I guess I need to realize why we are all on here. I am going to try and look at it differently. Maybe, just maybe, it is not the end but a new beginning where we will all meet each other and we can hug each other and be happy. Maybe we can swore the solar system together. Go anywhere and be anything we want. A nice thought, but one thing I know for sure, the cares of this world will be no more. I won't have to wake up depressed, lost, and hopeless wondering what is going to happen next. So, anyway it happens, it will be better than the destitute life I have now.
Fly High Ladybug, Fly High

 

[PopcornCrew24]

Maybe, just maybe, it is not the end but a new beginning where we will all meet each other and we can hug each other and be happy. Maybe we can swore the solar system together. Go anywhere and be anything we want.

So wonderfully said that it made me cry ;~;

 

[setspiritfree]

So wonderfully said that it made me cry ;~;

I hope it was tears of hope

 

[moonsun]

I think we may have lost her. If this is the case, this is the first time I have lost someone on here that I was following. I keep signing on hoping that she would be on here or a recent post. But I guess I need to realize why we are all on here. I am going to try and look at it differently. Maybe, just maybe, it is not the end but a new beginning where we will all meet each other and we can hug each other and be happy. Maybe we can swore the solar system together. Go anywhere and be anything we want. A nice thought, but one thing I know for sure, the cares of this world will be no more. I won't have to wake up depressed, lost, and hopeless wondering what is going to happen next. So, anyway it happens, it will be better than the destitute life I have now.
Fly High Ladybug, Fly High

do u know her story by any chance
I have also seen a few of here posts back when she was active.