iamjustapebble
i hate this
- Sep 20, 2025
- 77
Last year I applied to two majors that interested me but i didn't qualify for either of them. there was a second recruitment period for some stupid fucking major in the same uni. my mother told me that I should sign up for it because it will make getting into the majors i actually want to get into easier and I'll have experience and it will all be better. and on top of that I'll still have free national insurance. She threatened that I would have to pay thousands of dollars for my psychiatrist, and doctors and medication, and whatever else if I took a gap year (which I really wanted and honestly needed).
So like an idiot i trusted my mother (even though her stupid ideas have fucked me over before) and took this clearly made up major, fuck it I'll do it for a year. And from their recruitment website it actually doesn't seem that bad. I mean they have a some stuff I'm interested in.
Turns out their website was all lies and they don't plan on doing any of the things I'm in any way interested in or would use in the sector that I want to work in. I remember this one lecture we had that was so bad I still get intense episodes of anxiety and suicidal ideation because of it. The major made my depression so much fucking worse that I had to take sick leave for the second semester because I genuinely couldn't take it.
Here comes this year, I tried applying again. Surely it will be better... They fucking HATE that I went to college for a year. it's clear that they want nothing to do with me because of it. And I learned that I couldve just leeched the insurance off my mom for a year. Because of course my country has a system for people who are fresh out of high school, you dumbfuck. So I fucked myself over for no reason. And I can't even drop out because my mom is threatening me.
I feel like I'm out of options here. I feel so sick. Im going to die soon. FUCK ALL OF THIS
So like an idiot i trusted my mother (even though her stupid ideas have fucked me over before) and took this clearly made up major, fuck it I'll do it for a year. And from their recruitment website it actually doesn't seem that bad. I mean they have a some stuff I'm interested in.
Turns out their website was all lies and they don't plan on doing any of the things I'm in any way interested in or would use in the sector that I want to work in. I remember this one lecture we had that was so bad I still get intense episodes of anxiety and suicidal ideation because of it. The major made my depression so much fucking worse that I had to take sick leave for the second semester because I genuinely couldn't take it.
Here comes this year, I tried applying again. Surely it will be better... They fucking HATE that I went to college for a year. it's clear that they want nothing to do with me because of it. And I learned that I couldve just leeched the insurance off my mom for a year. Because of course my country has a system for people who are fresh out of high school, you dumbfuck. So I fucked myself over for no reason. And I can't even drop out because my mom is threatening me.
I feel like I'm out of options here. I feel so sick. Im going to die soon. FUCK ALL OF THIS
