I find it so hard to accept that the last thing alot of people who ctb spend their last moments in sheer fear and terror when there are peacful method

[kiko]

You can imagine jumping off a cliff, feeling the force of gravity as you hurl towards the choppy sea.You last moments fear and sheer terror.

Quivering holding a gun to the back of your, praying to gods you dont believe in that you dont miss and end up more of a burden and a strain on our society.

I wish assisted euthsania was just an accepter thing. So many on the planet believe in it.

Im sorry im just suffering real bad lately. just hoping on buses driving around the country visiting all the places i have memories in and just sitting back,being in the moment again.

that dissconnected place. you know?

 

[woxihuanni]

The process of dying is as difficult as things get, even with a peaceful method. And for violent ones, I feel for people with no other options. And a great big fuck you to all idiots who think 'suicide is so easy'.

 

[trynacbt]

The emotional struggle is also really heavy. Guilt, ambivalence, relief, shame... having to hide all of it from loved ones, not being able to have real goodbyes because people might suspect something is up. I too believe that those who are going through unbearable suffering should have the opportunity to be euthanized in a humane manner. Unfortunately I think that kind of forward thinking will take decades and decades to be implemented, if at all...

 

[tiredofpain]

You can imagine jumping off a cliff, feeling the force of gravity as you hurl towards the choppy sea.You last moments fear and sheer terror.

Quivering holding a gun to the back of your, praying to gods you dont believe in that you dont miss and end up more of a burden and a strain on our society.

I wish assisted euthsania was just an accepter thing. So many on the planet believe in it.

Im sorry im just suffering real bad lately. just hoping on buses driving around the country visiting all the places i have memories in and just sitting back,being in the moment again.

that dissconnected place. you know?

I partially agree, I too wish it were legal but I also feel like there should be some pain involved in dying.

 

[Return2Dust]

You can imagine jumping off a cliff, feeling the force of gravity as you hurl towards the choppy sea.You last moments fear and sheer terror.

Quivering holding a gun to the back of your, praying to gods you dont believe in that you dont miss and end up more of a burden and a strain on our society.

I wish assisted euthsania was just an accepter thing. So many on the planet believe in it.

Im sorry im just suffering real bad lately. just hoping on buses driving around the country visiting all the places i have memories in and just sitting back,being in the moment again.

that dissconnected place. you know?

I admire people who can walk to the edge and jump. I imagine the terror is brief as it takes seconds to hit the ground or water. I'm afraid of heights so I couldn't do it. Plus, I'm afraid I'd still be alive after the attempt - in a wheelchair unable to walk.

 

[siray]

The emotional struggle is also really heavy. Guilt, ambivalence, relief, shame... having to hide all of it from loved ones, not being able to have real goodbyes because people might suspect something is up. I too believe that those who are going through unbearable suffering should have the opportunity to be euthanized in a humane manner. Unfortunately I think that kind of forward thinking will take decades and decades to be implemented, if at all...

I see you are familiar with Arthur Schopenhauer. I have read a few books of his before starting his chief work The World As Will and Representation. I haven't finished it yet, but his exposition has helped me make peace with death.

 

[trynacbt]

I see you are familiar with Arthur Schopenhauer. I have read a few books of his before starting his chief work The World As Will and Representation. I haven't finished it yet, but his exposition has helped me make peace with death.

I actually haven't read any of his stuff, just this quote that really resonates me with regards to my feeling that my ctb is not a choice, but a kind of destiny or something I am compelled to do. Would love to hear your thoughts on his chief work though, if you want to PM :)

 

[bigj75]

yae some methods are too brutal like setting yourself on fire. how can you choose that method.

 

[DeepSleep]

You can imagine jumping off a cliff, feeling the force of gravity as you hurl towards the choppy sea.You last moments fear and sheer terror.

Thats because you think of the _Time_ as a cinema film where you can seek it frame by frame back and forth.
And you see a person in his last moments at frame number 37361 and you rollback 10 frames before that.
So it seems to you as its still somewhere in our reality, with their doubts, and pain and suffering.

Its not. They are all gone. Long time. They're not even bones or hair or fractions of their cell DNA.
They are recycled atoms and entropy.
They are gone and their pain is gone.

To pity them is akin to pitying a cow who ended up in McDonalds.

I think what makes people think this way is our digital age where everything is recorded, archived, and can be played back.
In the physical realm, beyond our perception and memory, it doesnt work that way.

Its a bitter truth, but its true.

 

[kiko]

I admire people who can walk to the edge and jump. I imagine the terror is brief as it takes seconds to hit the ground or water. I'm afraid of heights so I couldn't do it. Plus, I'm afraid I'd still be alive after the attempt - in a wheelchair unable to walk.

I know it would be the end. but its those few seconds feel so much longer. why should anyone ever have to feel that

 

[Roger]

I anticipate the end being very frightening whatever the chosen method. @Kakabushi chose SN, and her final words on the forum were "I'm fucking terrified."

 

[Daniela]

I actually haven't read any of his stuff, just this quote that really resonates me with regards to my feeling that my ctb is not a choice, but a kind of destiny or something I am compelled to do. Would love to hear your thoughts on his chief work though, if you want to PM :)

He actually was against suicide. He wanted people to be like Buddhist monks, i.e. without desires and indifferent to suffering. "Far from being a denial of the will, suicide is a phenomenon of the will's strong affirmation." i.e. disappointment that life didn't turn out how you want it to be.
Not that he practiced what he preached (asceticism) one iota

 

[Soul]

Different people want different things from our deaths, and the various methods express different things. Peaceful+painless seems to be the most popular, but given that hanging and firearms are still (I think?) the most common methods worldwide, shocking+quick is awfully popular too.

 

[sleepy dog]

To pity them is akin to pitying a cow who ended up in McDonalds.

How can you say that? That cow had a much better life.

I anticipate the end being very frightening whatever the chosen method. @Kakabushi chose SN, and her final words on the forum were "I'm fucking terrified."

Maybe you confused members? Kakabushi's last words were "I don't want to throw up though"

 

[MisanthropicLycan]

I honestly feel like the moment of embracing death will be scary no matter what the persons method is...Despite our method we will all have to consciously take a brave step into the great unknown and fall into the eternal abyss. There will always be a certain amount of terror involved with that.

 

[sleepy dog]

I honestly feel like the moment of embracing death will be scary no matter what the persons method is...Despite our method we will all have to consciously take a brave step into the great unknown and fall into the eternal abyss. There will always be a certain amount of terror involved with that.

I agree. Its a different kind of fear based on the method used

 

[kiko]

I see you are familiar with Arthur Schopenhauer. I have read a few books of his before starting his chief work The World As Will and Representation. I haven't finished it yet, but his exposition has helped me make peace with death.

Oh I wasn't, I am.now thanks for dropping that name

 

[Roger]

How can you say that? That cow had a much better life.


Maybe you confused members? Kakabushi's last words were "I don't want to throw up though"

I bow to your greater knowledge. My memory must be faulty.

My source is a buzzfeed story quoting thus:-

'In her last post on the forum, Shatto wrote, "I'm fucking terrified." '

 

[sleepy dog]

I bow to your greater knowledge. My memory must be faulty.

My source is a buzzfeed story quoting thus:-

'In her last post on the forum, Shatto wrote, "I'm fucking terrified." '

Actually you are probably right. The SS forum deleted some of her posts. I am the one that bows to your greater knowledge.

 

[PDAnnie2610]

The process of dying is as difficult as things get, even with a peaceful method. And for violent ones, I feel for people with no other options. And a great big fuck you to all idiots who think 'suicide is so easy'.

It never is easy.. i think..

 

[FailedWoman]

You can imagine jumping off a cliff, feeling the force of gravity as you hurl towards the choppy sea.You last moments fear and sheer terror.

Actually I think about it a lot, and it's probably my favorite method to fantasize about. Even though I'm terrified of heights.
I love to imagine what it's like to take the plunge, feel the wind go through your hair as you fall. Too bad my country doesn't have a single cliff though.

 

[CrushedHopes]

I hope I won't have to eat my words when I say that I don't fear death.

 

[trynacbt]

That's b

He actually was against suicide. He wanted people to be like Buddhist monks, i.e. without desires and indifferent to suffering. "Far from being a denial of the will, suicide is a phenomenon of the will's strong affirmation." i.e. disappointment that life didn't turn out how you want it to be.
Not that he practiced what he preached (asceticism) one iota

That's very interesting, as I interpret the quote in my signature a little differently—that I want to ctb. I wish I didn't want to ctb, but I do. I can't control the fact that I want to ctb. But I will ctb because I want to.

 

[cherry7]

I actually haven't read any of his stuff, just this quote that really resonates me with regards to my feeling that my ctb is not a choice, but a kind of destiny or something I am compelled to do. Would love to hear your thoughts on his chief work though, if you want to PM :)

I sometimes wonder too if it's my destiny.

 

[Oncologynurz123]

The process of dying is as difficult as things get, even with a peaceful method. And for violent ones, I feel for people with no other options. And a great big fuck you to all idiots who think 'suicide is so easy'.

I'm so feeling this right now. My father committed suicide when I was 6 years old. I still remember people saying that it was a selfish thing to do and other negative things about him. I've never been angry at him for doing it, just sad I couldn't know him better. Rather, I always thought him brave for going through with it, yet saddened to the core when thinking about how much excruciating emotional pain he mustve had to drive him into it. He shot himself.