I finally sleep, but when i wake, all the bad thoughts come rushing back

[nosoul]

Just got a decent drug induced sleep, but instead of wanting to attack my day, I want to just sleep forever, lay down not do a thing.

Feeling like I have no purpose and dreading the day ahead:(

Still trapped mentally, still trapped physically :(


Can anyone relate?

 

[TheSadStranger]

Just got a decent drug induced sleep, but instead of wanting to attack my day, I want to just sleep forever, lay down not do a thing.

Feeling like I have no purpose and dreading the day ahead:(

Still trapped mentally, still trapped physically :(


Can anyone relate?

Yeah I definitely can relate. I'm not going to go into the wall of text that is my story, but all I do anymore is sleep. I can somewhat escape the physical and emotional pain while I'm asleep.
It's the best alternative I have to ctb'ing because I just don't want to hurt anyone, but I also don't want to hurt anymore.

 

[orca87]

Same here. Even if it gets better in the evenings, this waking up drown in sweat and with all these sinister thoughts takes energy of the whole day. spiral of hell

 

[bluebird16]

Same. Plagued by suicidal thoughts from the moment I wake up. I take antidepressants along with some other meds but they don't really seem to help.

 

[hellispink]

as soon i open my eyes, i feel very painful in my chest and its hard to breathe. My body starts hurting along with my soul and spirit. It is heavy. Like carrying a bag with a bunch of weight on it that kills you slowly.

 

[FuneralCry]

Waking up and realising that I still exist really can be such a horrible feeling, I also just wish to permanently rest as it certainly can be so torturous feeling trapped here. Only those who not exist are the fortunate ones.

 

[orca87]

Same. Plagued by suicidal thoughts from the moment I wake up. I take antidepressants along with some other meds but they don't really seem to help.

Because they don't. They're a scam. Some even say that people labelled as "mentally ill" actually suffer from side effects and/or withdrawal symptoms.

It's about life in most cases. Maybe you have lost something. Or you want something that you can't get. Or you have experienced trauma that you cannot come over.

Whatever it is, antidepressants won't help. Find out what it is that causes the pain first

 

[outrider567]

Just got a decent drug induced sleep, but instead of wanting to attack my day, I want to just sleep forever, lay down not do a thing.

Feeling like I have no purpose and dreading the day ahead:(

Still trapped mentally, still trapped physically :(


Can anyone relate?

As soon as I wake up, no matter how lucid or intense my dreams are, I'm immediately depressed knowing that she's still dead, yet another bleak and lifeless day ahead of me