LivideLamb
I'm so decaying, feeling like an ashtray
- Jan 5, 2020
- 367
I started writing my suicide note a few months ago. In late September, I had the major lines wrote down on paper, on a pdf, on a note app. Everywhere on my phone and computer, so that I would be able to access it quickly if I thought of something new
Yesterday, at night, I finally finished it
I'm extremely happy. I'm relieved in some way. It's poetic, maybe a little dramatic, but, it's my way of writing. I genuinely love my note. I love it, but, I know that everyone around me will hate it. Hate it like they never hated before
Though I'm asking myself just one question. I kinda want my family to read it at my funeral. Because it explains, vaguely, what happened, and, why I took this decision. That love can't fix this type of things
I already wrote it down on my computer, but I really want a paper version. I wanna write it, sign it, maybe spray perfume that could remind them of me, and then, put it in a sealed envelope, and, out it somewhere hidden for everyone but me
Yesterday, at night, I finally finished it
I'm extremely happy. I'm relieved in some way. It's poetic, maybe a little dramatic, but, it's my way of writing. I genuinely love my note. I love it, but, I know that everyone around me will hate it. Hate it like they never hated before
Though I'm asking myself just one question. I kinda want my family to read it at my funeral. Because it explains, vaguely, what happened, and, why I took this decision. That love can't fix this type of things
I already wrote it down on my computer, but I really want a paper version. I wanna write it, sign it, maybe spray perfume that could remind them of me, and then, put it in a sealed envelope, and, out it somewhere hidden for everyone but me