Venting I feel trapped

[awman]

i'm so done with this life. i want to sh or ctb so bad but i have to live for other people/pets. if i could just sh to relieve myself from these horrible thoughts and moments in life, i feel i could get by a little easier. but no, my husband tells me to tell myself that i had a good day when i know it's never a good day usually anymore. he also tells me when i have these thoughts is to fight with myself but i have been fighting myself everyday for as long as i can remember. i can't do this anymore. my meds don't help, my "healthy" coping mechanism don't work. i just want to be free.

 

[FuneralCry]

I understand feeling so tired of everything, it must be so dreadful feeling trapped in that situation, I've personally always wished for freedom from everything. But anyway I wish you the best.