I feel the pain of loneliness every single day without exception

[Crematoryy]

My brain is producing suffering from the lack of connection with real people. I wish they would look me directly in the eyes, hug me, and tell me I don't have to fight my problems alone. All I've ever wanted is a romantic partner or boyfriend/girlfriend. I would describe this experience as neurochemical emotional pain, something similar to a chronic headache. My whole body tells me that something is wrong and missing. I experience creations within my own mind to feel less lonely, to obtain the neurosensory stimulation that the world has vehemently failed to provide me, whether with hugs or physical touch. Objects don't change places in my house unless I rearrange them. I miss simple things, like the active and autonomous behavior of another being that is not controlled by me. There are studies that prove the decrease in memory capacity in isolated individuals, since they lose the stimulus of conversation between two or more people, which leads to synchronous monotony. This has been going on for many years. I am not responsible for this situation, but I will be responsible for getting out of it! (through life or death).

 

[brazilianautistic]

I'm sorry, we're on the same boat.
Don't know if you also feel this but it breaks me to see people who have friends and a healthy social life saying they have no friends. Being actually isolated feels physically terrible.

 

[SadWrld]

I'm sorry, we're on the same boat.
Don't know if you also feel this but it breaks me to see people who have friends and a healthy social life saying they have no friends. Being actually isolated feels physically terrible.

I have been going through a lonely community lately and every other post is exactly someone like that and yeah i feel the same. I dont think these people really know what it means to be really lonely, alone or to have no one. Because having friends, a partner and all that is definitely none of it.

 

[brazilianautistic]

I have been going through a lonely community lately and every other post is exactly someone like that and yeah i feel the same. I dont think these people really know what it means to be really lonely, alone or to have no one. Because having friends, a partner and all that is definitely none of it.

Holy YES. I've bonded with people over the fact that we have no friends and during the same conversation they keep going "I have a friend that-- Oh I have this friend that-- Omg all my friends do this."
They simply do not realize how we wish to be willingly contacted and actually seen for once.

 

[SadWrld]

Holy YES. I've bonded with people over the fact that we have no friends and during the same conversation they keep going "I have a friend that-- Oh I have this friend that-- Omg all my friends do this."
They simply do not realize how we wish to be willingly contacted and actually seen for once.

I feel you so much. Last time was just 2 days ago where i messaged someone because they were apparently suicidal, very depressed, so lonely and have no one. Next day they SERIOUSLY tell me they are fine and were just having a bad night and starts telling me about all the friends they had. I would lie if i say it didnt kinda rub me the wrong way and that i kinda got sad about it. They ended up getting defensive and mad also pulling excuses and basically starting a one sided argument that ended with them leaving and ignoring me for a couple hours. Yeah i totally agree that they have no idea how they make us feel when they pretend to be in the same boat that we are in. Just because they didnt get a text for a couple minutes/hours, because they had a bad day/night, because they are just bored or something else like that. It feels really invalidating in a way how they use loneliness when they arent lonely at all like its not even taken serious anymore. "My 100 friends and my partner havent texted me for 10 minutes im so sad and lonely guys :(" They have no idea what we go through, how we feel and neither what it really means to be lonely, alone and having no one. Going days, weeks, months or even years without a text/talking, without a friend, without a partner or you never even had any of it. Yet people who have all this claim to be like us because they didnt get a text from one of the many people they have for 5min or were just bored. We dont even have one person and they cry about loneliness because they have only 50 instead of 100 people. Sorry for the really long yap/rant XD