
Namelesa
Trapped in this Suffering
- Sep 21, 2024
- 1,400
(this was stuff I started writing 2 days ago but didn't have the energy to write fully)
I realized something that has made me feel really really paranoid and conflicted. How am I supposed to know what I am doing and saying is morally correct? What if I am too biased in how I think? What if what I am doing is actually wrong and I don't know it? What if I just believe what I doing is right but it isn't? Am I actually manipulative? But also what if it applies to others morals as well? What if they are biased and wrong? I don't know who to trust when it comes to morals now as any of us could be wrong and we don't know it. Or maybe they are manipulating others to think that wrong is right? Could we be inflicting more pain and suffering with our morals? But if we are actually right we would be letting more suffering happen if we let things be. I DON'T KNOW ANYTHING ANYMORE.
I am probably so insane for questioning everything hehehe. I mean some people here even think I am insane so it must be correct hehehe. I am genuinely doing a laugh of insanity right now.
(writing from now)
Okay I am bit calmer now but that's mostly just cus of not wanting to think about it too much. I am still paranoid about what's right and think I am insane and potential evil. It can literally be about anything. I feel like sometimes I don't even know basic morals that most people know. I feel evil for not understanding others morals sometimes as that means something is wrong with me that I can't think correctly. Why do I see good in things that people see that are bad and see bad things that other see as good? One person has to be the more morally correct one here right? But who is it? I don't know and that makes me paranoid on what to do. I need to lessen the suffering in this world so I need to correct people that are wrong but who knows whose the correct one here? Am I just causing more issues arguing when they were in the right or potential making others more immoral or am I doing the right thing by causing issues on those who are immoral and maybe potentially making them better people?
I am more frozen in what I should being doing now. I don't want to hurt or cause issues by arguing on innocent people but I feel like I should argue back at those who have wrong views and do bad actions. Everything feels risky now. Its probably best for me to be alone forever or kill myself so I can't cause any potential issues or suffering or making others more immoral.
I realized something that has made me feel really really paranoid and conflicted. How am I supposed to know what I am doing and saying is morally correct? What if I am too biased in how I think? What if what I am doing is actually wrong and I don't know it? What if I just believe what I doing is right but it isn't? Am I actually manipulative? But also what if it applies to others morals as well? What if they are biased and wrong? I don't know who to trust when it comes to morals now as any of us could be wrong and we don't know it. Or maybe they are manipulating others to think that wrong is right? Could we be inflicting more pain and suffering with our morals? But if we are actually right we would be letting more suffering happen if we let things be. I DON'T KNOW ANYTHING ANYMORE.
I am probably so insane for questioning everything hehehe. I mean some people here even think I am insane so it must be correct hehehe. I am genuinely doing a laugh of insanity right now.
(writing from now)
Okay I am bit calmer now but that's mostly just cus of not wanting to think about it too much. I am still paranoid about what's right and think I am insane and potential evil. It can literally be about anything. I feel like sometimes I don't even know basic morals that most people know. I feel evil for not understanding others morals sometimes as that means something is wrong with me that I can't think correctly. Why do I see good in things that people see that are bad and see bad things that other see as good? One person has to be the more morally correct one here right? But who is it? I don't know and that makes me paranoid on what to do. I need to lessen the suffering in this world so I need to correct people that are wrong but who knows whose the correct one here? Am I just causing more issues arguing when they were in the right or potential making others more immoral or am I doing the right thing by causing issues on those who are immoral and maybe potentially making them better people?
I am more frozen in what I should being doing now. I don't want to hurt or cause issues by arguing on innocent people but I feel like I should argue back at those who have wrong views and do bad actions. Everything feels risky now. Its probably best for me to be alone forever or kill myself so I can't cause any potential issues or suffering or making others more immoral.