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amy
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- Jun 27, 2020
- 7
I know some of you would find this completely stupid, but I want to express it, maybe verbalizing it one day it will go away. I think about suicide and immediately feel very calm, the idea that everything will end and I will no longer have to deal with this mountain of emotions and thoughts is tempting, I have suffered from chronic anxiety and depression for many years in addition to very low self-esteem, it I was diagnosed with borderline but I am in therapy with another psychologist who tells me that this diagnosis may be wrong. 9 months ago my 4-year relationship ended with the person I have loved the most and I have been plunged into a terrible crisis and suffering out of this world that I do not wish on anyone, trying everything I can to heal but nothing works. I only want total peace and I feel that the only way to achieve it is death, if I had not been so afraid of physical pain I would have already carried it out, yesterday I tried to get pentobarbital to do it but in my country it is difficult and often costly, I feel completely lost ... Excuse the bad English, I am from Colombia and I have a very basic level in this language.