I think the hardest part is when you actually get touched and treated well for a few days. Then going back to the norm of being alone and touch-starved for however long, half a year usually for me. The transitionary period is very hard to cope with, while being in the slump is easier. Like being tossed down a hill where you hit your head on every rock on the way down, and finally getting to rest on the bottom, while bruised and battered, but still resting.