guineapiglover8503
Emily
- Oct 7, 2024
- 59
I feel like this the majority of nights but right now I feel like I'm ready to CTB. If I had the means to CTB with me right now, I'm pretty sure I would in a heartbeat. My mind hurts me so much right now and I can't fucking take it. Tonight I looked myself in the mirror and I swear I didn't see anything behind those eyes. I only saw death in them. I took a photo and looked at it for a bit and I just look empty, like a walking corpse. It's hard to explain but it just looks so empty. My friend I usually talk to about this has been really busy the past 2 days so we haven't been able to talk so I'm pretty much alone in this.
I also have such a strong urge to cut right now. I used to do so but it wasn't too deep but I know where the razors are and I want to so bad. The last time it was on my upper arm but I might to thigh this time if I do so. I might start working more on my note now
I also have such a strong urge to cut right now. I used to do so but it wasn't too deep but I know where the razors are and I want to so bad. The last time it was on my upper arm but I might to thigh this time if I do so. I might start working more on my note now
