i feel peaceful when I'm going to ctb

[gggy]

yesterday I was going to ctb but I felt peaceful knowing my misery is going to end, i didn't manage to do it, but everytime i plan my death i felt okay and normal

 

[final_countdown12]

Thats the suicidal ideation phase, which gives this instant relief. The challenge is to overcome the ideation phase and be able to really execute the plan, otherwise we will be foreve trapped in this purgatory.

 

[FuneralCry]

I understand why you'd feel peaceful, for me personally death truly is the only comfort, I only wish for non-existence. I just find it so cruel and dreadful how it's so unnecessarily difficult for one to cease existing on their own terms but anyway best wishes.

 

[Dark Window]

yesterday I was going to ctb but I felt peaceful knowing my misery is going to end, i didn't manage to do it, but everytime i plan my death i felt okay and normal

Perfectly normal.