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DeathSleep
Unstable Potato
- May 25, 2023
- 189
I've been falling way behind on things like important phone calls, appointments, cleaning and such that normal people would easily be able to do. Some things have hit a critical level to get done because it has been going on so long now. The little things have become very important things now.
I've just given up on doing the things to maintain my life making it much more stressful while I'm still here. I can't keep up with things and it's become so overwhelming that I just stopped doing most things. It's stressful and I'm doing it to myself because of my mental state... depression, apathy and whatnot.
It's gotten to a point that it's a little embarrassing that I can't stay on top of things. Others try to encourage like I'm a little kid learning to tie their shoes. It makes me feel worse.
I struggle to care about anything because if I'm going to die soon why bother. Although it would make my remaining time here slightly less stressful. I'm just having so much trouble getting, what should be minor things, done. The to do list just keeps getting longer. I try to take it one thing at a time. What's the point? I'll CTB in a few months or sooner. That's the plan anyways.
I guess I was just hoping that someone can relate to this because some people, like my roommate, make fun of me and talks down to me for not getting simple things done. I feel pathetic.
I've just given up on doing the things to maintain my life making it much more stressful while I'm still here. I can't keep up with things and it's become so overwhelming that I just stopped doing most things. It's stressful and I'm doing it to myself because of my mental state... depression, apathy and whatnot.
It's gotten to a point that it's a little embarrassing that I can't stay on top of things. Others try to encourage like I'm a little kid learning to tie their shoes. It makes me feel worse.
I struggle to care about anything because if I'm going to die soon why bother. Although it would make my remaining time here slightly less stressful. I'm just having so much trouble getting, what should be minor things, done. The to do list just keeps getting longer. I try to take it one thing at a time. What's the point? I'll CTB in a few months or sooner. That's the plan anyways.
I guess I was just hoping that someone can relate to this because some people, like my roommate, make fun of me and talks down to me for not getting simple things done. I feel pathetic.