Susannah
Mage
- Jul 2, 2018
- 530
I have never experienced luck. I was never allowed being happy when I was teenager. Both my sister (died) and my father (ran away) the same week when I was 14. Grew up taking care of my mother. I've never done anything really bad in life. I consider myself open- minded, and less prejudice than many people. Everybody used to come to me for talking, cause they consider me a good listener. I spend most of my life caring for others, forgetting about myself. Time ran by, and I'm now 40y, OMG.
The last years 10y, I've experienced being locked up in prison (only 2 days) be a mistake. The father to my son (hated me for a long time), got custody for our son as a result of this mistake. I wasn't allowed to see him for 1 year. 3 years later, I met "the wall", and got SSRIs, but no one to talk to. Sadly my friends turned out to be less interested in my problems, and mental health problems was "out of their league". I got no support. My doctor mixed up my medication, and I "overdosed" on Venlafaxine (SSRI). I tried to reach out to friends and family. They answered by sending me to a psyciatric hospital (by force, the police broke into my house). 3 weeks being isolated at the ward, broke me even more. Got of meds after 3 months, and started working fulltime+. The ward was awful, and I slowly developed anxiety. Friends and family still think they helped me back then, and were unwilling to talk about it. I kept everything inside. 4y ago I was in an accident. Some city developer had "forgotten" to secure a new mtb trail, and I suddenly lost the ground beneath, and fell down on a steap (3 meters) concrete staircase, and crushed both elbows into pieces. Spend 1 month in a hospital, several operations. Rehab lasted for 3y, but I can't work (takes me 30 min writing this on my phone). I was refused help from our social welfare systeme, still don't understand what happen, but according to their papers, I only fractured 1 arm. A laywer wanted me to sue the firm accountable for the dangerous trail, but I ended up having to pay thousands of dollars instead. I just got turned down when I applied for disability benefits, cause I have 2 working legs!!
I now wonder how and why I ended up here. No money, lots of nerve pain in my arms, and no help (I live in Norway, and we're supposed to have the greatest welfare systeme). I feel I'm in this forever circle of unluck and injustice. What to do?
The last years 10y, I've experienced being locked up in prison (only 2 days) be a mistake. The father to my son (hated me for a long time), got custody for our son as a result of this mistake. I wasn't allowed to see him for 1 year. 3 years later, I met "the wall", and got SSRIs, but no one to talk to. Sadly my friends turned out to be less interested in my problems, and mental health problems was "out of their league". I got no support. My doctor mixed up my medication, and I "overdosed" on Venlafaxine (SSRI). I tried to reach out to friends and family. They answered by sending me to a psyciatric hospital (by force, the police broke into my house). 3 weeks being isolated at the ward, broke me even more. Got of meds after 3 months, and started working fulltime+. The ward was awful, and I slowly developed anxiety. Friends and family still think they helped me back then, and were unwilling to talk about it. I kept everything inside. 4y ago I was in an accident. Some city developer had "forgotten" to secure a new mtb trail, and I suddenly lost the ground beneath, and fell down on a steap (3 meters) concrete staircase, and crushed both elbows into pieces. Spend 1 month in a hospital, several operations. Rehab lasted for 3y, but I can't work (takes me 30 min writing this on my phone). I was refused help from our social welfare systeme, still don't understand what happen, but according to their papers, I only fractured 1 arm. A laywer wanted me to sue the firm accountable for the dangerous trail, but I ended up having to pay thousands of dollars instead. I just got turned down when I applied for disability benefits, cause I have 2 working legs!!
I now wonder how and why I ended up here. No money, lots of nerve pain in my arms, and no help (I live in Norway, and we're supposed to have the greatest welfare systeme). I feel I'm in this forever circle of unluck and injustice. What to do?
