articspiral
Member
- Jan 25, 2023
- 10
It's hard to describe how upset I am that out of this complex world, my life ended up being a agonizing waste of fucking time. I don't want to go into detail because I sincerely doubt anyone here of all places has a solution to my plethora of reasons for CTB-ing, but I just can't seem to swallow the fact that this is it. This is life. Out of the miraculous circumstances that life itself even emerged, this is all there is. If I don't end up CTB-ing I will work a 9-5 job for a faceless cooperation in an increasingly hostile and self-centered society until I am replaced by a robot and left to starve, and this is optimistic. If the nukes, or the microplastics, or the forever chemicals in our fucking rain that kill me first it's going to be by my hand I can finally rest from all of this. I genuinely don't see how anyone can look to the future and see something worth living for. I wish I could, I really do. But this is all there is. If any god happened to be watching over the world, he's a sadistic son of a bitch and all I can hope for is that I die, quietly, in my sleep before things get any worse.