rokonie
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- Jun 3, 2024
- 72
When the ctb thoughts are at their worst, i occasionally stop myself and think, "Wait, doesn't everyone do this? What makes you think you're so special and deserving of someone who cares?" And idk i genuinely can't tell if it's abnormal to be considering, fantasizing, and planning methods for a way out. It's something i've been doing since i was like 14-15 so ive accepted it as a normal thought. Perhaps i havent met enough people who are mentally healthy and grew up with a good childhood, so my perception is skewed, but who ISNT mentally ill in this day and age? Nearly every regular person seems to be overworked, depressed, anxious, and wishing for something better than a 9-5 24/7. I figured most people have dreamed of (and liked thinking of) their suicide and/or actually attempted and im being an overdramatic child wishing for special treatment.