body_snatcher
green and lonely
- Jan 23, 2023
- 40
People can laugh but I've been having constant nightmares about Nazis, doing horrible things to me. As a nonbinary person I have felt so depressed lately. It feels like the whole world just thinks I'm some disgusting joke but I've tried to fight who I am and I can't. I'm just trapped as this thing no one respects and my own president just reaffirmed that I don't exist, that I'm a mentally ill female. It makes me want to CTB.
This world has only gotten more barbaric and disgusting over time. I pretend to my friends and family because they're afraid I'm going to do it but the truth is I don't see things getting better. I think we might actually live in some sort of hell. I feel the only way to escape may be death. I have been convinced of this for years but had a brief period of happiness on medication. All of that is ruined now. I'm so poor I can't buy or do anything but watch collections pop up and watch all the bills I can't pay pile up. The cost of everything is going up and I can barely survive and the world is so shitty and apathetic that no one really cares. I've been struggling for so long, I just want to go to the next place. I think I'm in hell.
This world has only gotten more barbaric and disgusting over time. I pretend to my friends and family because they're afraid I'm going to do it but the truth is I don't see things getting better. I think we might actually live in some sort of hell. I feel the only way to escape may be death. I have been convinced of this for years but had a brief period of happiness on medication. All of that is ruined now. I'm so poor I can't buy or do anything but watch collections pop up and watch all the bills I can't pay pile up. The cost of everything is going up and I can barely survive and the world is so shitty and apathetic that no one really cares. I've been struggling for so long, I just want to go to the next place. I think I'm in hell.
