Tintypographer
I am done as of 4-21-2023. Somewhere I am no more
- Apr 29, 2020
- 471
I look around and realize how completely unfulfilling who I am, what I do, and why I exist has wound up. I wake every day to unfulfilling joy. I dislike who I am, I hate what I do, I can't change the past and I'm stuck simply living out middle age and old age regretting everything I chose. If I could go back in time I wouldn't tell myself to buy Microsoft or apple. I would simply say "die now" to my teenage self and spare the future the lame life that will exist.
I read a book this week called "the velvet rope economy" which explained how the gulf between wealthy and poor has grown so great that even our time and attention are something that can be sold to us. If you were fortunate enough to choose to make no mistakes and take huge chances early in life and have big breaks along the way you could be successful. Otherwise you are stuck in a life without joy or fulfillment.
Cognitive therapy offers a pair of rose colored glasses to dope you into feeling good about everyday things like clawing your way up to middle management or walking outside. What you want is a way to feel fulfilled and if a wrong choice is made that fulfillment is over.
Posted before I could finish.
I'm tired of the medications, I'm tired of reframing to be more positive. I don't want to live anymore and I want to end this wasted life soon.
I read a book this week called "the velvet rope economy" which explained how the gulf between wealthy and poor has grown so great that even our time and attention are something that can be sold to us. If you were fortunate enough to choose to make no mistakes and take huge chances early in life and have big breaks along the way you could be successful. Otherwise you are stuck in a life without joy or fulfillment.
Cognitive therapy offers a pair of rose colored glasses to dope you into feeling good about everyday things like clawing your way up to middle management or walking outside. What you want is a way to feel fulfilled and if a wrong choice is made that fulfillment is over.
Posted before I could finish.
I'm tired of the medications, I'm tired of reframing to be more positive. I don't want to live anymore and I want to end this wasted life soon.