gantaigarashi
Wageslave
- Aug 1, 2023
- 127
I feel like a such a pussy. Like there are people working hard in corporates or blue collar jobs, enduring it and providing for their families. But I just can't do this.
I failed my attempting SN recently. I hate SI. It would've been good if I had CTB'd that day. Now we've moved places near to my brother's university and his classes have started. Now if I CTB my brother will have to drop out of college. My family will probably have to move places again. I will cause them so many inconveniences if I CTB now.
I'm fucking stuck man. My workload is increasing, I can't bear to see the mails. Idk anymore, I feel so helpless, I wish if someone could've saved me from this hell. I wish if I was mentally stronger to push through this hell and wait till my brother graduated. I am a defeated human.
I am a pussy because I can't do a job that's most of the time work from home and it pays good. I should be grateful that I'm in a decent paying job with work from home, but here I am thinking about CTBing because of it. Fuck
I failed my attempting SN recently. I hate SI. It would've been good if I had CTB'd that day. Now we've moved places near to my brother's university and his classes have started. Now if I CTB my brother will have to drop out of college. My family will probably have to move places again. I will cause them so many inconveniences if I CTB now.
I'm fucking stuck man. My workload is increasing, I can't bear to see the mails. Idk anymore, I feel so helpless, I wish if someone could've saved me from this hell. I wish if I was mentally stronger to push through this hell and wait till my brother graduated. I am a defeated human.
I am a pussy because I can't do a job that's most of the time work from home and it pays good. I should be grateful that I'm in a decent paying job with work from home, but here I am thinking about CTBing because of it. Fuck
