trustlovenoone1881
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- Oct 20, 2023
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Or at the very least, I feel like I have the potential of becoming one. First, I think things will work out if I trust the process. And then, I think the process has nothing else to offer me, that maybe I deserve to sit and stir myself crazy until my day of reckoning comes.
I would never want to hurt him any more than I already have... but I can't forgive myself. And I can't fix anything. I can't show him or prove to him how much he really, really, really does mean to me. And now I just have to stop feeling that way? Damn...
I'm no Joe Goldberg or Love Quinn, I'm not Glenn Close or a teen babysitter from every Lifetime movie ever, I'm just someone who really loved someone, and I want him back.
How do people make themselves okay with these feelings? How do people live longer than I do, well into their 40s, 50s, and 80s, and are so okay with having emotions like this?
I would never want to hurt him any more than I already have... but I can't forgive myself. And I can't fix anything. I can't show him or prove to him how much he really, really, really does mean to me. And now I just have to stop feeling that way? Damn...
I'm no Joe Goldberg or Love Quinn, I'm not Glenn Close or a teen babysitter from every Lifetime movie ever, I'm just someone who really loved someone, and I want him back.
How do people make themselves okay with these feelings? How do people live longer than I do, well into their 40s, 50s, and 80s, and are so okay with having emotions like this?
