Venting i feel incredibly disgusted to engage with anything anymore. i feel like a fraud, a loser and a vile abomination.

[cacowads]

I don't even want to think, read and analyze things properly anymore. my mind just keeps jumping straight into thoughts of death, killing myself and just pure self loathing.
What's even the point of trying to engage in day to day life when it doesn't feel any satisfying anymore, knowing it doesn't matter and you're a defective human. i feel like a sack of bones without any reason to live.
i sincerly stopped participating in school, reading books, hobbies engaging with video games or shows.
they all make me feel horrible to enjoy knowing that i am incompatible or undeserving to experience such things considering my disgusting, defective self.

tl;dr thinking hurts, what's even the point. im not a normal human anyways

 

[scary]

this is 100% me. you're definitely not alone in this feeling. I wasn't built for this world

 

[Green_leaf]

I can attest too that you are not alone in this feeling

 

[left0vers]

I relate.

 

[TheDevilsAngel]

Definitely understand!