Venting I feel ashamed of how weak I am.

[Pubert]

I feel so ashamed of the fact that I haven't acted on my suicidal and self harm thoughts. If I spend so much time thinking about it, why don't I just do it? I feel so weak. I think my thoughts just aren't strong enough and I'm just too sensitive and weak.

I don't think I even belong here, so many people have it worse than me.

 

[Forever Sleep]

I do understand where you're coming from. I do often feel the same.

Still, it's so complicated isn't it? I don't think it's weak to fear possible pain and uncertainty and ctb could well involve both.

I think I understand- like the will/want to end it ought to be strong enough to overcome everything else. I guess all of us have suicidal ideation- we all do want it to be over but the practicalities of actually doing it are frightening and risky. I think a lot of us are held back by that.

I'm in a similar situation to you I think- I know in comparison to others, I have it much easier. Still- that doesn't really help does it? Just adds guilt into the mix!

Personally, I feel like we all have the 'right' to feel what we feel- regardless of our circumstances. There will always be people in worse situations and better situations than ourselves. That doesn't take away from the fact that we all feel suicidal to some degree.

 

[FuneralCry]

Suicide really is so difficult, the fact that you are still here doesn't mean that you are weak. All humans are programmed to survive after all, and in my case there is the fear of failure that holds me back. I do wish that there was a way to fall asleep and never wake without having to go through the process of ctb, it hurts me how hard it is to leave this world. Just because others have it worse doesn't mean that you are not suffering.

I'm sorry that you are in this situation, I know that it is awful feeling as though you are trapped in this world. I have never wanted to live, but yet I am still here. I wish you relief from pain.

 

[MisFortunate]

No, don't feel ashamed. Everyone's circumstance is unique. I want to end my life but it has become an excruciating problem for me. I freak out. I'll miss my family, what if this happens or that happens or I don't die. It's a bitch.

 

[Lawliet]

just wanted to say i'm in the same boat. you're not alone. but what so many people said above, it's not that you're weak. it's that suicide is really really hard.

 

[September5th]

I know I'm never gonna be able to push it through. This hurts me. All I wanted was to stop the pain right now. I would rather burn my entire body than having to live another second in this hell.

 

[MisFortunate]

I do understand where you're coming from. I do often feel the same.

Still, it's so complicated isn't it? I don't think it's weak to fear possible pain and uncertainty and ctb could well involve both.

I think I understand- like the will/want to end it ought to be strong enough to overcome everything else. I guess all of us have suicidal ideation- we all do want it to be over but the practicalities of actually doing it are frightening and risky. I think a lot of us are held back by that.

I'm in a similar situation to you I think- I know in comparison to others, I have it much easier. Still- that doesn't really help does it? Just adds guilt into the mix!

Personally, I feel like we all have the 'right' to feel what we feel- regardless of our circumstances. There will always be people in worse situations and better situations than ourselves. That doesn't take away from the fact that we all feel suicidal to some degree.

Such an elo

I do understand where you're coming from. I do often feel the same.

Still, it's so complicated isn't it? I don't think it's weak to fear possible pain and uncertainty and ctb could well involve both.

I think I understand- like the will/want to end it ought to be strong enough to overcome everything else. I guess all of us have suicidal ideation- we all do want it to be over but the practicalities of actually doing it are frightening and risky. I think a lot of us are held back by that.

I'm in a similar situation to you I think- I know in comparison to others, I have it much easier. Still- that doesn't really help does it? Just adds guilt into the mix!

Personally, I feel like we all have the 'right' to feel what we feel- regardless of our circumstances. There will always be people in worse situations and better situations than ourselves. That doesn't take away from the fact that we all feel suicidal to some degree.

Such a beautiful and eloquent post. I agree 1000%!

 

[Forever Sleep]

Such an elo

Such a beautiful and eloquent post. I agree 1000%!

 

[Pain In The Ass]

I feel so ashamed of the fact that I haven't acted on my suicidal and self harm thoughts. If I spend so much time thinking about it, why don't I just do it? I feel so weak. I think my thoughts just aren't strong enough and I'm just too sensitive and weak.

I don't think I even belong here, so many people have it worse than me.

I think CTB is one of the scariest things we can attempt. I wouldn't beat yourself up.