Hey Ghostly, You're not alone,all the people you've loved and lost are with you all the time guiding you forward to the happy place you're meant to be, You have a boyfriend and a Friend! That's more than most here have, l myself have a Dog, that's it! I'd give anything to be loved by someone and have a Friend! You're luckier than you know, Give life and the Arseholes in it the middle finger and enjoy being loved! Sending you a Warming hug and my dog 'Max' sends you a friendly Woof