I failed to jump

[ValkyrieCain]

I failed to take the leap in time , was reported by the bridge workers to the police.

I sat on the railing of the bridge, all it wouldve taken was for me to let go . But I didnt.

When i climbed back over, the police officers rushed me and cuffed; They detainee me under the mental health act.

They took me to hospital first caused overdosed. I let them know since I didnt make the jump

Then they took me to a mental health assessment to see if i was deemed fit to not be put in a ward.

Making the leap is much scarier than i thought, I was dead set before I got there ; even booking an uber ride down. But I still couldnt manage. The coldness of the sea, the wind the mental barrier .

Im going to be looking for a different method

 

[Johnzaga23]

were are u now

 

[soonnotkoei]

no worries, theres always time to try a different method as long as you do your research.
SI can be very strong, good luck.

 

[Thomas_Europe]

I failed to take the leap in time , was reported by the bridge workers to the police.

I sat on the railing of the bridge, all it wouldve taken was for me to let go . But I didnt.

When i climbed back over, the police officers rushed me and cuffed; They detainee me under the mental health act.

They took me to hospital first caused overdosed. I let them know since I didnt make the jump

Then they took me to a mental health assessment to see if i was deemed fit to not be put in a ward.

Making the leap is much scarier than i thought, I was dead set before I got there ; even booking an uber ride down. But I still couldnt manage. The coldness of the sea, the wind the mental barrier .

Im going to be looking for a different method

I understand you… it is a quite save method but i am also too scared to jump. What scares me most are the few seconds of free fall hitting the ground.

 

[darkenmydoorstep]

I failed to take the leap in time , was reported by the bridge workers to the police.

I sat on the railing of the bridge, all it wouldve taken was for me to let go . But I didnt.

When i climbed back over, the police officers rushed me and cuffed; They detainee me under the mental health act.

They took me to hospital first caused overdosed. I let them know since I didnt make the jump

Then they took me to a mental health assessment to see if i was deemed fit to not be put in a ward.

Making the leap is much scarier than i thought, I was dead set before I got there ; even booking an uber ride down. But I still couldnt manage. The coldness of the sea, the wind the mental barrier .

Im going to be looking for a different method

From what I've heard on here, survival instinct is stronger than we realise. Love and strength to you xx

 

[ijustwishtodie]

I'm so sorry. SI really is strong especially when it comes to jumping. I truly admire anybody who ctbs by jumping as they truly are so courageous and brave. I personally could never do such a method myself due to the immense fear that it causes

 

[L'absent]

What you described doesn't seem to be about a simple 'survival instinct,' but rather something much deeper and more complex. When the mind finds itself in extreme situations like the one you experienced, it often creates a kind of internal dialogue—a conflict between different parts of yourself. On one hand, there was your rational decision, planned and calculated, but on the other, there seem to have been sensations and reactions that surfaced in the moment. It wasn't just the cold, the wind, or the sea—it was how your body and mind interpreted that moment, amplifying the perception of the void and the unknown.
The 'mental barrier' you mentioned isn't an external obstacle but a manifestation of that internal conflict. It's not about weakness or simple fear. It's like the mind's final way of communicating with you, asking you to stop—as if a part of you hasn't finished telling its story yet. This isn't a 'survival mechanism' in the automatic sense of the term, but something more intricate: a resonance between your thoughts, emotions, and physical sensations.
Your experience shows how intricate this moment is. It's never a straight line between thought and action, but a weave of emotions, fears, and sometimes even hopes that manifest in the most unpredictable ways. I'm not here to tell you what to think or do, but perhaps what happened on the bridge wasn't a failure. Maybe it was a message from a part of you that still has questions, still has pieces to explore. It's a human reaction, not a flaw.

 

[slinkey10]

I failed to take the leap in time , was reported by the bridge workers to the police.

I sat on the railing of the bridge, all it wouldve taken was for me to let go . But I didnt.

When i climbed back over, the police officers rushed me and cuffed; They detainee me under the mental health act.

They took me to hospital first caused overdosed. I let them know since I didnt make the jump

Then they took me to a mental health assessment to see if i was deemed fit to not be put in a ward.

Making the leap is much scarier than i thought, I was dead set before I got there ; even booking an uber ride down. But I still couldnt manage. The coldness of the sea, the wind the mental barrier .

Im going to be looking for a different method

"Making the leap is much scarier than i thought" - this is the key moment in most ctb methods.

Sorry it didnt work for you.

 

[trapdoor]

SI is much stronger than a lot of us realize. The mind and body are hardwired through millions of years of evolution to keep us alive at all cost. I experienced something similar when I tried to jump from an overpass a few days ago. No matter what I told myself, how depressed I was, how ready I was, I couldn't let go of the railing. I hope you find peace soon, however that may be.