I envy those who no longer exist

[FuneralCry]

While many other people envy those that have the lives that they want, I can only ever envy those who have died. To me it sounds so peaceful to never have to live another day, never have to think and never have to feel. Nothing could ever make me want to stay here and to me non existence is preferable to any kind of life. As long as someone is alive, they are capable of experiencing so much pain and to me that is so horrifying. Life is very cruel and unfair after all, things can get so much worse for anyone and I envy those who are free from it all.


When I hear of someone who is gone, I wish that it is me. It is unfair how others die and yet I am still stuck here. It hurts me being alive and I never want to live, yet it is so difficult to leave. It is comforting the thought of eternal nothingness, only I wish that it is easier to get there.

I envy those who die very young, they do not have to suffer for decades just to die eventually. I already feel like I have been alive for too long at this point, and I wish that I left when I was much younger. Those that die peacefully are also who I envy the most, it must be such a relief knowing that the suffering is about to end and not feeling pain in the last moments of living. To me death can never be sad, as it is what is the best for me, and sadness is only an emotion for the living, but death is the absence of everything. All I want is an eternity of nothingness where everything that makes living painful is gone.

 

[AloneInCollege]

Many who don't deserve to die or don't wish to die end up dead and many who wish to be dead don't. It often feels like a cruel joke. I get what you mean, I sometimes think about how nice it would be so nice to switch places with someone who passed before their time.

 

[LoveYoux]

It's a refreshing philosophy, the way suicide is treated in this corner of the world
I think it's a really beneficial place, progressive even, handing control and speaking freely, helping others to actually succeed, rather than prevention and section
I mean, there is something to be said that 'normal' people do not wish to end their life, it is not a healthy notion yet, is it a right? That's the query
Anyway, life sucks and then you die anyway, just something to be said for treating those who take responsibility for their own demise rather than labelling them cowards
I think it's an admirable centre, ensuring and gifting the knowledge of safe and painless and quick methods, unflinching ears and a freedom to be vulnerable

Guess all I'm trying to say is, I like it here x

 

[WorthlessTrash]

Same. Many who want to live, die. While many who want to die, live. If only we could trade places with them.

 

[Deleted member 31858]

Mismo. Muchos que quieren vivir, mueren. Mientras muchos que quieren morir, viven. Si tan solo pudiéramos intercambiar lugares con ellos.

I would also like that!

 

[Lost in a Dream]

I feel the same way. The worst part of it all, is that I almost did die when I was a baby. Of course, I was kept alive by medical intervention, but every day I wish I could've escaped from this world back then, before I ever had the chance to comprehend what being alive means.

 

[Pluto]

I sometimes have similar thoughts when I pass by a cemetery. Whatever difficulties those people went through in their time, it's over now.