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- Apr 1, 2025
- 29
It's winter now, so all the clothes I wear have long sleeves and no one questions it. I like that, though there have been some incidences when I had to roll up my sleeves and accidentally revealed my scars. My mother nearly saw them, but even if she did, she'd just call me crazy and dismiss it. She doesn't want to acknowledge that I'm not ok, maybe because it'd mean admitting she wasn't as good of a mother as she thought she was. And I get it, admitting you fucked up is hard. I suffer because of her refusal but, eh, it's fine. I stopped expecting her to ever acknowledge it at this point, to her I'm perfectly fine just a bad daughter who blackmails her with suicide. Which is fine, I don't really care about it anymore, though sometimes it stings.
Back to the topic, during winters I can wear long sleeved clothing and not be questioned about it. Though during summer, I can't really wear long sleeves, it's too hot to wear them even if I want to but also I have to wear shirts with short sleeves for my classes since that's the uniform for the summer. And throwing on a hoodie or any other piece of clothing on top of it isn't an option either since I have to stick to the dress code.
Anyways....I don't really know why I'm posting this. I guess, I'm just a little frustrated at myself for being an idiot and using the blade on my lower arm instead of somewhere that'd be easy to hide. Also a little scared of how to explain to people who're bound to question the less than normal amount of scars on my arm. ('''– ⌓ –)＝３
Thank you for reading through all of that, and I hope you have a great day/ night ahead! ദ്ദി◝ ⩊ ◜).ᐟ
Back to the topic, during winters I can wear long sleeved clothing and not be questioned about it. Though during summer, I can't really wear long sleeves, it's too hot to wear them even if I want to but also I have to wear shirts with short sleeves for my classes since that's the uniform for the summer. And throwing on a hoodie or any other piece of clothing on top of it isn't an option either since I have to stick to the dress code.
Anyways....I don't really know why I'm posting this. I guess, I'm just a little frustrated at myself for being an idiot and using the blade on my lower arm instead of somewhere that'd be easy to hide. Also a little scared of how to explain to people who're bound to question the less than normal amount of scars on my arm. ('''– ⌓ –)＝３
Thank you for reading through all of that, and I hope you have a great day/ night ahead! ദ്ദി◝ ⩊ ◜).ᐟ
