Venting i dont want to wake up tomorrow

[jes7ter]

every day its just getting worse, its so clear that nothing will ever change
i dont want to wake up tomorrow i feel a pit in my stomach just from thinking id have to relive the same day over and over
i hate being around people i want to be in a dark place alone somewhere
theres no one left that cares about me anymore,
ill have to endure living like this for around two months and if i gain the courage to commit by then ill either finally be free or ill fail, and i will have to live for another 50+ years just to die just as miserably after a long, miserable life

 

[Wojaczek]

this life is mostly torture and it has very little redeeming qualities.
the fact that we are all just trying to do the best and it's still not enough for this fucked up world says it all.
fuck this place.

 

[cursedlife]

I relate to this and I wish I could die in my sleep,tortured for 9 years with mental illness, don't know why I'm here , stayed but still think life isn't worth living