i don’t want to live but i also don’t want to kill myself?

[immrw]

I've attempted in the past and failed. I'm just so fatigued from life. I have 5 chronic health issues and I can't support myself financially.

I wish I could just be euthanized

 

[Dingusguy]

I am sorry to hear about you health issues and monetary situation. I get the feeling of just being exhausted from life, and euthanasia should be a more practiced thing. If people don't want to live then why force them? We are all brought into the world without consent (for obvious reasons of course) But in my mind that means we should have the right to say when we want to leave again.

Anyway, I hope you find a way out. No one deserves to suffer or feel forced to live.

 

[nihilistic_dragon]

I think I understand what you mean. I personally just wish I could disappear entirely, every part of me, every molecule, every cell, "soul", whatever else there is of me, as if I never existed. I have zero interest in continuing to exist, yet the whole process of cbt-ing seems so freaking daunting, the closer I get to the date the more daunting it seems.

 

[Serial Experi Pain]

I think I understand what you mean. I personally just wish I could disappear entirely, every part of me, every molecule, every cell, "soul", whatever else there is of me, as if I never existed. I have zero interest in continuing to exist, yet the whole process of cbt-ing seems so freaking daunting, the closer I get to the date the more daunting it seems.

Off-topic, but @nihilistic_dragon did you happen to take part in the CTB/CBT poll, yet?



On topic, I often end up in this exact situation very often. I have a handful of health issues, and a whole ass magical bottomless bag of mental/emotional issues that I battle with that make me wish that since I can't be normal, I didn't exist or at least didn't feel it...

I'm sorry you feel this way and are going through so much @immrw

 

[nihilistic_dragon]

Off-topic, but @nihilistic_dragon did you happen to take part in the CTB/CBT poll, yet?



On topic, I often end up in this exact situation very often. I have a handful of health issues, and a whole ass magical bottomless bag of mental/emotional issues that I battle with that make me wish that since I can't be normal, I didn't exist or at least didn't feel it...

I'm sorry you feel this way and are going through so much @immrw

I'm not sure, where is that poll?
I guess everyone has their own reasons - many or a few - for not wanting to live. No one can fully understand those reasons except for the person. That is why I think it's so incredibly cruel that the society stigmatizes cbt and leaves us no easy way out. It's gaslighting really if you think about it. But I guess at least we have each other here on this forum.

 

[Serial Experi Pain]

I'm not sure, where is that poll?
I guess everyone has their own reasons - many or a few - for not wanting to live. No one can fully understand those reasons except for the person. That is why I think it's so incredibly cruel that the society stigmatizes cbt and leaves us no easy way out. It's gaslighting really if you think about it. But I guess at least we have each other here on this forum.

CBT vs CTB - A very important PSA

What is CTB? CTB, or "Catch The Bus", is a metaphor for suicide. What is CBT? Cock and ball torture (CBT) is a sexual activity involving the application of pain or constriction to the male genitals. This may involve directly painful activities, such as genital piercing, wax play, genital...

sanctioned-suicide.net

It's right here :)

 

[FuneralCry]

I understand why you'd feel so tired, it sounds like you've suffered a lot. Personally I also just wish to be euthanised, I wish I had that option, it'd be such a relief for me. But anyway best wishes.

 

[nihilistic_dragon]

CBT vs CTB - A very important PSA

What is CTB? CTB, or "Catch The Bus", is a metaphor for suicide. What is CBT? Cock and ball torture (CBT) is a sexual activity involving the application of pain or constriction to the male genitals. This may involve directly painful activities, such as genital piercing, wax play, genital...

sanctioned-suicide.net

It's right here :)

Lmao I was typing that after a very long day and very little sleep.

 

[Defenestration]

I've attempted in the past and failed. I'm just so fatigued from life. I have 5 chronic health issues and I can't support myself financially.

I wish I could just be euthanized

I dream all time to be euthanazied.
I dont want to die, just stop to suffer

 

[Defenestration]

the same I'm between two and it's very tiring. I do absolutely nothing with my life and I spend my days eating, sleeping and on the internet. I am totally out of touch with day and night and the current world. if someone asks me my plans I lie even though on January 1, 2023 and January 1, 2024 I swore to myself that it would be my last year...

 

[babouflo201223]

pareil je suis entre deux et c'est très fatiguant. Je ne fais absolument rien de ma vie et je passe mes journées à manger, dormir et sur internet. Je suis totalement déconnectée du jour et de la nuit et du monde actuel. si quelqu'un me demande mes projets je mens même si le 1er janvier 2023 et le 1er janvier 2024 je me suis juré que ce serait ma dernière année...

Pareil en ce moment, et oui, c'est épuisant. Du coup je passe en revue toutes les méthodes qui me semblent les plus fiables. J'hésite toujours. Ce soir j'en reviens au saut depuis un endroit assez haut. Mais je ne sais pas si je pourrais... Le SI est puissant apparemment. Tu es en France ou aux USA ? Moi, France.

 

[peruguy23]

I guess we all go through this situation, it's the survival instinct.

 

[Trav1989]

the same I'm between two and it's very tiring. I do absolutely nothing with my life and I spend my days eating, sleeping and on the internet. I am totally out of touch with day and night and the current world. if someone asks me my plans I lie even though on January 1, 2023 and January 1, 2024 I swore to myself that it would be my last year...

I'm personally planning on 2025 being my last year, just exhausted with life and when sleeping is your happiest time of the day because you can escape the trappings of life then it means that life just isn't for you anymore.

 

[Unknown21]

I've attempted in the past and failed. I'm just so fatigued from life. I have 5 chronic health issues and I can't support myself financially.

I wish I could just be euthanized

Killing yourself is hard and takes a lot of suffering to accomplish. I know exactly what you mean Op. It's hard. The mind is your own worst enemy indeed. I wish you peace in life or death.

I dream all time to be euthanazied.
I dont want to die, just stop to suffer

The process of dying is scary and hard to accept. If only life were easier, or the right to die was available.

 

[Kurai]

I don't want to live and I don't want to kms but I need to die. This is the pain and confusion I feel everyday