Discussion I dont want to get better i want to get worse

[Corpse_in_a_dress]

I want somthing that will make me feel worse and that will fuck me up until the point that I have a constant urge to end it all I hate society its mean degenerate and fucked up I'm borderline an incel at this point I want to find a girl or guy who will cuddle me and tell me its all going to be ok but I'm fat ugly and have a sub par personality. I'm numb and Hatefull and I need something to just push me over the edge.

 

[FuneralCry]

It is miserable living a life of constant suffering, so it is understandable wanting something to push you over the edge so you can finally be free from it all. It really is horrible being alive. I hope you find peace.

 

[eternalmelancholy]

Don't worry. Life will always find new and surprising ways to fuck with you. Even if you think you hit rock bottom there is still room for more suffering. There is no rock bottom. The rabbit hole just keeps going down forever until the day you die.

 

[kurisutinabestgirl]

Same here. I either want to get better or worse, but not stay in this stupid inbetween.
Getting that last push would justify my suicide more, and maybe my parents would feel less bad because they knew I was suffering. Right now, nobody would think that I am actually on the verge of ctb-ing.

 

[miserableforever]

Misery is the only thing that feels real cause no one can take it away from you, I totally understand the concept. It's easier to throw in the towel rock bottom at the lowest low. What are the odds of improvement anyway?