Venting I don't want to do anything

[The Disqualified]

I don't want to do anything in life. All I want to do is to commit suicide.
That is all I really feel in my heart. I need to die. I feel like I need to die as soon as possible, but I resist that feeling and keep on living. I don't know what to do.
All I do is rot in bed, go to uni, barely do my chores, and think about suicide. I don't want to do anything, I just can't and that feeling tortures me. To see how others live just makes me even more suicidal. All I think about is to kill myself and kill myself and undo this horrible cosmic mistake before I live on for even one more second.
There is no way out for me. Suicide is the only way I am getting out of this one.

 

[ForeverUnknown]

If you resist there is a sliver of hope hanging on to your heart. Why resist it?

 

[Wojaczek]

there are literally no reasons to keep on going

 

[Unsure and Useless]

I get how you feel. This feeling has consumed me so much that my attendance has dropped significantly along with my GPA. The only reason why I keep postponing my date is because I always found something I liked to live for ("I can't die because, if I die, I won't be able to eat this gyro anymore", "If I die, I won't be able to watch SaganHawkes", "I don't think I should die when I want to read more books", etc)

I don't want to be so arrogant that I tell you how to get over this SI, but maybe you could really explore this feeling of wanting to live. Just question yourself:

"Why do I want to live?" + "Why does this reason make suffering bearable?" + "Is this reason worth suffering?" <— That kind of thing

This way, you might be able to better understand how to move forward 'cause you shouldn't go through with CTB if a part of you isn't completely in it. Besides, by questioning yourself, you'll be better able to plan when you'll CTB as well as what you'll do up to that date

For instance, if you want to live because you like cats, try seeing some cats on the days leading up to your death—fill your life with all the cat-related things you desire so that, when you go, you'll die knowing that you did the thing you loved most in your last moments