Venting i don't want to do anything

[batmanreal]

i hate getting out of bed. i hate that i have to do very basic tasks and chores, i hate that i have to go to work. as soon as i wake up, i look forward to the end of the day and sleeping. as i'm getting ready for bed, i dread the fact that i'll have to get up and pretend to be a person in a few hours. i'm not interested in any of my former hobbies. i don't want to play video games or read comics or watch anything. i don't want to go anywhere. everything just feels like a chore, even if it's supposed to be fun. i'd rather sleep. i wish i could sleep forever.

 

[Hollowman]

Same here.

 

[cherrypitlover03]

I felt this in my BONES.

 

[uzl lover]

Same.

 

[Unbearable Mr. Bear]

i hate getting out of bed. i hate that i have to do very basic tasks and chores, i hate that i have to go to work. as soon as i wake up, i look forward to the end of the day and sleeping. as i'm getting ready for bed, i dread the fact that i'll have to get up and pretend to be a person in a few hours. i'm not interested in any of my former hobbies. i don't want to play video games or read comics or watch anything. i don't want to go anywhere. everything just feels like a chore, even if it's supposed to be fun. i'd rather sleep. i wish i could sleep forever.

I think that is a reason why a lot of people are tired of life. I'm usually a bit better about it but lately a side effect of a new med made me lethargic and unable to feel good things, so I can relate, and it sucks major balls. Like, you know you're supposed to feel good, but you just cant, you just can't feel joy of doing something you actually enjoy.

Mama bear offers her furry embrace, honey.

 

[F@#$]

I'm the same way.

 

[Cobamel]

Lately I've been feeling many of the things you're feeling. For what is worth, it's comforting to know that the same thoughts are going on in the mind of other people. It makes me feel less different. Thank you for sharing

 

[fallingbehind]

Whats so funny is I feel the exact way, yet I suffer from bouts of insomnia. So not only do I wish to just sleep my life away, half the time I cant even fucking do it. Felt this to my core.

 

[FinalDestiny]

I have never identified with someone more.

Specially this quote "i dread the fact that i'll have to get up and pretend to be a person in a few hours"

Jesus man. I never had the words to explain this feeling but, yeah.

Thanks for sharing with us. Helped me a bit today.

 

[mourningyesterday]

Whats so funny is I feel the exact way, yet I suffer from bouts of insomnia. So not only do I wish to just sleep my life away, half the time I cant even fucking do it. Felt this to my core.

exact same here i can't wait for the day to end so i can go to bed but i barely sleep. if i could sleep i would all day tbh

 

[telekon]

i'm really lucky in that i mostly work remote so sometimes i don't get out of bed all day. i thought it would make me happy but it doesn't. i'm starting to get bed sores. i spend the whole weekend in bed too. i want to be a truck driver now.

 

[trashisland]

this is literally me. I hate everything, and I hate that im in a position in life where I should be doing something with myself, yet im stuck in my room doing nothing but hating everything and wishing it was over. I wish I could sleep through the days until I die, I dont want to do anything anymore

 

[Irisse]

this is literally me. I hate everything, and I hate that im in a position in life where I should be doing something with myself, yet im stuck in my room doing nothing but hating everything and wishing it was over. I wish I could sleep through the days until I die, I dont want to do anything anymore

Exactly this for me as well. I don't want to do anything nor do I want to have any new experience, good or bad.

 

[pthnrdnojvsc]

i hate having to do anything. and it's constant work , chores , cleaning , problems , dealing with people and many other things i don't want to do. i ask myself why do i have to do all this garbage for what reason only to exist another day and risk extreme torture and get older decay more.

i wish i had the courage to shoot myself in the head so i would cease to exist forever . non-existence forever would be the best by far for me .

 

[LoverofAnimals]

Sleep forever. How wonderful that would be. I often ask before I go to sleep to just let my painlessly die. I'm not religious, but who knows who's listening.

I'm so sorry you suffer so much

 

[Forever Sleep]

I also feel this, word for word. Life is just neverending chores.

 

[Unsolved]

I feel this so much. Sadly I can't just stop doing anything and while I kinda want to end it all I still have some hope that it might get better. Though it's interfering with everything, school, relationships, etc it gets even worse because while I want to sleep I feel like the only time I can do what I truly want to do is at night. My sleep schedule is really messed up rn.

 

[traumer]

honestly same, and it's even harder when i made a bunch of plans when i was in a manic episode like im sorry for cancelling our meetup for the 30th time i just feel like shit for no reason

 

[lawlietsph]

same. same same same.
dream job? what the hell is a dream job, i don't dream about working, i don't want to do anything at all.
hobbies? none.
interests? naaah they don't matter anymore.
sleep is the only peace, laying in bed is the only thing that feels somewhat okay.
even breathing is hard.
like just seeing the words "what is your dream job" is pissing me off, like i'm some kind of monster just because i have ZERO interest in any career. bullshit.

we are not supposed to do anything btw other than collecting/growing food and rest. everything else is made up bullshit

 

[StoneCellaiver]

It's like a train ride that's gone on for a bit too long. There's just nothing appealing after a certain point.

 

[itsover14]

It's so unfair how depression just sucks out all of our energy. Like Andrew Solomon said in his ted talk about depression: the opposite of depression isn't happiness, but vitality.

Don't work very much, which is the only reason I'm able to take care of myself without too much effort. I mean, it's still tough, but, basic self-care maintenance uses up most of my effort. Full-time work on top of that is an easy recipe for utter burnout.

The thing is, I feel if I could just work full-time without being insanely miserable, I'd be able to afford to do the things I enjoy doing and so would feel much better. And it makes a complete difference, eg was able to do a lot of little trips recently (not on my dime) and it just made life so nice actually.

But unfortunately the only thing thing therapists have been able to advise me to do is "do less". I've tried explaining I want / need to be able to learn how to do more and tolerate it without feeling so utterly miserable, but I guess that's not a solution.

Hope somehow you can do something fun this weekend that refreshes you even a bit