I don't want to be remembered.

[worthless123]

I don't want a funeral or any social media post featuring an ugly ass photo of me with some generic bullshit ass eulogy because I never did anything noteworthy except drop out of society.

I hate the idea of all my bullies from middle/high school searching up my very memorable name, finding my obituary, and quite literally having the last laugh. Anytime someone remembers something embarrassing I did and searches me up for laughs, I'll be right there on the first fucking page of google: "Committed suicide, accomplished nothing."

Before I completely locked myself indoors, random ass people would always laugh at me and call me ugly, record me, or eavesdrop on me while I was out just minding my own god damn business.

I don't know whether I should keep living this miserable isolated existence just to spite my old enemies, or CTB so that no other random group of assholes ever gets to bond over making me their laughingstock.

This is the fucking choice I have to make, and either way my family is going to be traumatized and completely disappointed in me. Either way, everyone who ever doubted and wronged me gets the fucking satisfaction in the end. I wish I could just erase myself from existence. I wish I wouldn't be remembered.

 

[Jadeith]

I don't want

Problem is that after we close our eyes for the last time, in most cases no one gives a shit about what we wanted. Ask to be cremated - they will bury you. Ask for no ceremony - they will drop lavish pity party with their pain and suffering all over social media.
On a brighter side - most probably we won't know about it anyway.

 

[NearlyIrrelevantCake]

My mother was similar--she wanted no funeral, no obituaries, nothing.

 

[dontletthembribeyou]

I feel the exact same way. I hate living out of spite.