i dont want anything out of life

[violetforever]

i cant think of a better reason to not be here anymore. theres no point in staying for nothing. i tried. i thought continuing school and slowly putting myself back into society after years of isolation would help but all im realizing is how much i dont care about anything. i dont want to do any of this anymore. the world looks like a strange place ive outgrown.

 

[WhatCouldHaveBeen32]

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[HikiKomoriF0rDecade]

I've lived in isolation for 15 years, I concur with such feelings. I've not known what it's like to be a high schooler or an adult and I probably never will. I hope I get a chance to kill myself soon, I'm sick of being watched 24x7, I don't want to be rushed to a hospital, this door won't hold if someone were to barge in during a hanging attempt.

 

[violetforever]

I feel the same way, this feels like a stupid game that I didn't agree to play and while there were a couple of fun things (games and other worlds to explore), the rest of it is shit. At least if the humans around me would be trying to make the world a better place, I might've stuck out a couple more years to help, but this is a selfish world not a co-operative world, we co-operate for selfish reasons not for altruistic ones. I'm glad I never brought another person here at least.

i basically only live to lay in bed and cry when i have no tasks to do. i cant find motive in anything. even as a preteen/teenager i never had ideas of the future id build and want for myself. back then i was already consumed with self harm and escapism in attempt to cope with life. after so many years of this i feel like it is really near my time.

I've lived in isolation for 15 years, I concur with such feelings. I've not known what it's like to be a high schooler or an adult and I probably never will. I hope I get a chance to kill myself soon, I'm sick of being watched 24x7, I don't want to be rushed to a hospital, this door won't hold if someone were to barge in during a hanging attempt.

i didnt experience high school either or adulthood at the time i shouldve began. i feel regressed in a lot of ways that just tire me in life. im sorry ur being monitored i feel like i wouldve ctb if i had more privacy as well.

 

[Pluto]