I don't wanna die, but don't see myself having a choice also :(

[Defatigatis]

(Posting here because I didn't get any response in the recovery section)

I don't want to die, I really don't; but it's either that or what awaits me is a life of constant work until the end of my days. I don't agree with that, it really makes no sense to me to have to work just to survive in this capitalist society.
I understand that it's necessary and people don't really work because they want, but it's still unfeasible for me anyway.. I've tried looking for things online several times, but it all usually boils down to sales or providing services using your skills. Which also doesn't suit me and, in any case, requires an energy I don't have to learn something new and boring that i really don't even care but have to learn to pay the bills... I don't know what to do, does anyone have any advice? Wish that i could just live as a neet for the rest of my life..

 

[apearl]

I've been having similar thoughts, like the whole point of our lives as the working class is just to make the rich richer while they exploit our labor and resources. And it feels like no amount of political activism is going to save that. (at least not in my country) Its really depressing to think about.
Something that might make u feel more understood/less alone is this one guy's youtube channel where he describes this kind of hopelessness really well.

heres the youtube video link: "The Quiet Enslavement of Everyone"

 

[HollowSoul]

yeah... I fucking hate it, and what I hate the most is that if im unenployed like I am right now I feel like shit

I cant enjoy things because that makes me feel guilty and thats what has lead me to being suicidal

 

[Front Back]

yeah... I fucking hate it, and what I hate the most is that if im unenployed like I am right now I feel like shit

I cant enjoy things because that makes me feel guilty and thats what has lead me to being suicidal

Yeah me too, I'm so depressed when I'm not at work and now that I'm employed I have a really long work hours with a shit pay. honestly not sure what to do anymore at this point
For OP, just hang in there for a bit. you don't want to die because something stopping you from wanting to die. I really hope you (and me) will find something worth holding in this place