Venting I don't understand how people enjoy life. Living is so exhausting

[ijustwishtodie]

It's just as the title says really. I wish I could expand more on this vent but I'm too drained out of energy. Life is so insanely difficult and perpetually tiring. Anybody else relate?

 

[OhWellDerp321]

Some people enjoy life because they have a decent quality of life. Decent income. Decent Home. Not going through day to day wondering what they will have to do to survive. Those are the people that say "oh no matter how negative your life is, it's always about how you look at life. Life is too short to be unhappy". And those are the people that have a decent life and didn't have to spend half of their life suffering. Those are the people that enjoy life. But guess what? If they had to suffer more, their opinion would change in a heartbeat.

 

[IDoNotExist]

It's just as the title says really. I wish I could expand more on this vent but I'm too drained out of energy. Life is so insanely difficult and perpetually tiring. Anybody else relate?

Very much. Same. 100%.

 

[ijustwishtodie]

Some people enjoy life because they have a decent quality of life. Decent income. Decent Home. Not going through day to day wondering what they will have to do to survive. Those are the people that say "oh no matter how negative your life is, it's always about how you look at life. Life is too short to be unhappy". And those are the people that have a decent life and didn't have to spend half of their life suffering. Those are the people that enjoy life. But guess what? If they had to suffer more, their opinion would change in a heartbeat.

I don't know if it's wrong of me but I actually wish I could relate to them, minus giving platitudes to suicidal people as i don't want to do that. I can't even imagine being in their shoes; it's just so incomprehensible to me. To have such a good quality of life..

 

[cetacea]

I totally relate;; It seems like life consists of all this stuff you have to do, it's exhausting and daunting...Relationships, school, jobs, our body, there's so much to always take care of. It's a constant balancing act. Even breathing is just another thing you have to do. And that's just if you were born normal. If you are mentally ill or struggle socially then you have to deal with that too. i hope you can find some time in your life to rest a little bit

 

[whateverr]

Some people enjoy life because they have a decent quality of life. Decent income. Decent Home. Not going through day to day wondering what they will have to do to survive. Those are the people that say "oh no matter how negative your life is, it's always about how you look at life. Life is too short to be unhappy". And those are the people that have a decent life and didn't have to spend half of their life suffering. Those are the people that enjoy life. But guess what? If they had to suffer more, their opinion would change in a heartbeat.

It's not what happens to you, it's what doesn't happen to you. Research pretty clearly shows it.

It's not what happens to you, it's what doesn't happen to you. Research pretty clearly shows it.

Outside of the obvious, extreme/chronic stuff.

 

[sserafim]

It's just as the title says really. I wish I could expand more on this vent but I'm too drained out of energy. Life is so insanely difficult and perpetually tiring. Anybody else relate?

I agree. Life is so tiring and exhausting. I hate having to live it. Every day I get more and more tired and fatigued, and the thought of non-existence and ctb becomes more appealing. Life just seems like responsibilities and obligations that I never wanted in the first place.

 

[ijustwishtodie]

It's not what happens to you, it's what doesn't happen to you. Research pretty clearly shows it.

I know I'm not the person you replied to but I'm curious as to what exactly you mean. Is it okay if you can clarify?

I agree. Life is so tiring and exhausting. I hate having to live it. Every day I get more and more tired and fatigued, and the thought of non-existence and ctb becomes more appealing. Life just seems like responsibilities and obligations that I never wanted in the first place.

Yes, exactly this. Especially that last sentence. I was born against my consent and now responsibilities are forced upon me? Same goes for you and everybody else here. It's unfortunate that it's like this. I never asked for any of these responsibilities.. it's just too much for me. And what's horrifying to me is that I don't even have it that bad yet. Like I'm not employed or independent. The idea of me being in complete cessation of life sounds so blissful

 

[NocturnILL]

Yea, you're not alone it's literally exhausting to continually be this exhausted.

 

[whateverr]

I know I'm not the person you replied to but I'm curious as to what exactly you mean. Is it okay if you can clarify?

Everyone goes through shit. Some people have even been tortured to near death very slowly and shit like that, but not commit suicide so it's clearly not what you go through, but how you were raised, the support you have after something traumatic, etc. You can probably throw genetics and other stuff in there, but what happens to you is only one factor that has never been an absolute barometer for suicide. Think about schizophrenia. Nothing happens to schizophrenic people. They just turn out that way because of nature + nurture. I specifically mention what doesn't happen to you because childhood neglect can have physically fatal consequences that are even worse than childhood abuse. That, and the support system thing after trauma is a huge factor. Also, not breaking out of chronic abuse/trauma is often a "what doesn't happen to you" situation more than anything because it typically requires you being saved in some way.

 

[jackrussell]

yes, i can relate.

 

[FuneralCry]

I see having the ability to exist as being such a tiresome and futile burden rather than anything enjoyable. It's a curse to have the ability to suffer endlessly with no escape from ourselves and our thoughts.
Those who worship this meaningless and harmful existence so much always come across as so delusional to me, existence is the true problem, the only relief for me lies in death, I always see it as better that this existence is forgotten about.

 

[ijustwishtodie]

I see having the ability to exist as being such a tiresome and futile burden rather than anything enjoyable. It's a curse to have the ability to suffer endlessly with no escape from ourselves and our thoughts.
Those who worship this meaningless and harmful existence so much always come across as so delusional to me, existence is the true problem, the only relief for me lies in death, I always see it as better that this existence is forgotten about.

I see existence in the exact same way. For me, death is complete freedom and existence is a prison. Hopefully we get free from our prison as quickly as possible

 

[Suspect_Device]

It's just as the title says really. I wish I could expand more on this vent but I'm too drained out of energy. Life is so insanely difficult and perpetually tiring. Anybody else relate?

Since I injured my neck life has been a chore. Just woke up from a nap in cold darkness at 7pm feeling scared and deeply lonely.