I don't think I'll even leave a letter

[Sadboyspecimen]

I know for a fact that the people reading my last words will only be laughing at what they say. Any time I try to talk about my point of view to ANYONE else, it's never understood. I feel like I'm going crazy. I feel like life is like the Truman show or something. How can I be this different than everyone else? How can any of this be real? I really wish I would just wake up and find out I was in a coma or something and that's why everything seems like nonsense. I've been to therapists too and they say there isn't anything wrong with me other than maybe a little anxiety. My life just steadily gets worse. I can't keep it all contained anymore and I keep bursting out in anger. I never wanted any of this. I just wanted to have friends and be a fun, kind person and live a normal life. People don't know how lucky they are to have somewhere to be and places to go. There is no worse feeling in the world than being chased away when you were just trying to make a friend. To be treated like a freak just for trying to fit in.

 

[jimmy7754]

My life is shit now and I wouldn't wish this feeling on anybody.

 

[locked*n*loaded]

Out-casting people has been around since the dawn of time. High school can be especially brutal, but it goes on long after that. Just my 2 cents, but maybe you're trying to befriend the wrong kind of people? Maybe finding people more like yourself would bring better results.

 

[Sadboyspecimen]

Out-casting people has been around since the dawn of time. High school can be especially brutal, but it goes on long after that. Just my 2 cents, but maybe you're trying to befriend the wrong kind of people? Maybe finding people more like yourself would bring better results.

Nah dude, trust me. I've had many different groups I've tried to hang with. It's just something I do, but I don't know what it is. Nobody ever says. They just start treating me like shit out of nowhere.

 

[locked*n*loaded]

I don't know. man. Your words in your post don't seem to indicate anything about you so far from the "norm", that you're all that much different from everybody else. I don't see anyone laughing here at you. Maybe it's the way you perceive things? Hey, just a thought I've written. Maybe it's the anger that drives people away? To me, it is extremely far-fetched that any one person is his own island. They say there is someone for everyone, and I think that includes like-minded people for friends, too. On the flip-side, what do I know, because I'm alone, too.

 

[CommitSudoku]

I just wanted to have friends and be a fun, kind person and live a normal life. People don't know how lucky they are to have somewhere to be and places to go. There is no worse feeling in the world than being chased away when you were just trying to make a friend. To be treated like a freak just for trying to fit in.

I really relate to this, you put it in to words very well. What few desires I've had in life ought to be easily achieved, and yet they seem impossible or turn out to be. Perhaps with my head the way it is there's no hope, I just feel myself dragging others down. I'm sorry you feel this way and can't grasp what you've wanted from life.
Whatever you decide to do, best wishes. I'm sorry you're suffering so much.

 

[FuneralCry]

Some people really can be so cruel and awful, I'm sorry that you have been treated like that. This life is very unfair and I know that it is dreadful when things just get worse. It is understandable not wanting to leave a note. I wish you the best in whatever happens.

 

[DangerRanger]

I feel the same way. Nobody bothers staying, no matter how hard I try. If they're not really listening now, why should I even bother leaving a note? It's not like they're really going to take any message from it. Oh well. Do know that you're not alone in how you feel at least. You've got the support here. Regardless of what you may choose to do, I wish you nothing but the best