Venting I don't know why.

[nottinghams]

OK please hear me out

suddenly I have stopped getting support and messages, questions answered, replies and help from everybody on the forum. Last two threads decimated, nobody replied.

I see other people getting lots of support and gentle well wishes without trying very hard. this has not been the case for me. I think back to when people said they don't want to speak to me because of my attitude, brashness and rudeness, and the fact I am condescending and repetitive. I have apologized over and over, even making a thread about it even like I was some influencer.

I sweat buckets right now with effort trying to think of how I should word every message and every thread. I try so so hard. Nope. And I can't even ask what I did wrong now from people I was talking to, cause they're not talking to me anymore.

I want that support that I see others getting, i don't think its exclusive. And I don't know why it just vanished with me. I have tried so hard to mend it. and I really have no idea why or what to do about it.


I hope somehow I am not permanently pariah'd like this cause that would really suck and i wanna use the forum like everybody else. believe it or not, people actually give great resources here and I would hate to lose them.

I am so so sorry, for whatever it is I did wrong. I NEVER wanted to upset anybody on this forum.


Please, if someone can give me direction, have mercy. Please..

 

[Davey40210]

I don't have advice to give, just to tell you that I looked at a few of your posts just now but didn't see anything wrong. Perhaps its just a quiet period on the forum? Sorry if I didn't comment on those posts when you posted them, but I also haven't been on the forum for that long.

What did you say in the past that was considered bad attitude, brash, rude, condescending or repetitive?

I also just made a post which I'm sure some people will consider one of those things so I hope it's not a thing where if you show your true self you get ostracized. Had plenty of that throughout my life and hope this forum is more accepting..

 

[Jealous Blackheart]

There seems to be a lot less members on the site right now than I remember there being this same time last year. Whether or not I'm remembering that correctly is another matter entirely. I made my first post after returning just yesterday. I missed how real everyone was on here. It was a nice way to spend what I thought were my last days. Being able to have real conversations with people who actually understand.

I don't know what you said or what you did, but I always thought about this forum as a zero judgement zone. Because to even have an account here I have to assume we're all at least a little bit messed up in our own way. Is that naive of me? I'm not sure. Maybe there are exceptions to that. I don't know. But I believe we all deserve an ear. Including you.

 

[Roseate]

I wouldn't take it personal, people lean more on "controversial" topics on here. They'll ignore certain people but if someone is saying they're going to ctb they'll jump on those or anything to do with "love." Or whatever. I really don't think it's you that's the problem but this is my first time seeing your posts. And also some people are rarely on here, they only come at times.

 

[locked*n*loaded]

I'd say it's because no one active on the forum, currently, knows the answers to your questions. I know I DON'T answer questions as specific as yours, yours or anyone elses, if I don't know the answers, or, at least, can point someone in the right direction to obtain correct answers. Again, as you've made a posting similar to this one previously, no one is intentionally NOT responding to your postings, or NOT answering your questions.

 

[willitpass]

Activity waxes and wanes. I can make four threads in a single day and get maybe one like and no responses. Two months later I can make a thread and it get flooded with engagement. It's a forum. No one is mandated to respond to anyone. People respond as they see fit. I myself go through periods where I am very interactive with others and other times I stick to my own personal vent thread and don't look at or interact with anyone.

 

[nottinghams]

I'd say it's because no one active on the forum, currently, knows the answers to your questions. I know I DON'T answer questions as specific as yours, yours or anyone elses, if I don't know the answers, or, at least, can point someone in the right direction to obtain correct answers. Again, as you've made a posting similar to this one previously, no one is intentionally NOT responding to your postings, or NOT answering your questions.

see that's absolutely fine, except people have said directly to me I'm all those horrible things I said at the start of this post. I had wondered if it was lasting.


Are you seriously telling me NO ONE knows about IV practices when I have seen it practically preached on this site? and other threads about it still get a lot of attention? I just feel as though I'm being avoided.
Same with opiates, cause there are addicts and users. maybe less support than IV due to knowledge, but still.
I even think its possible even on every thread people might think I just whine, due to reasons. I like what that one person said, no one here should be judged.

I mean just what do you suggest I do? Nothing? Genuine question, not snarky. IDK how to proceed my friend.


and if people are actually giving their love on this thread which is what I think I'm seeing, anyone on here is welcome to offer support to me (Please) I want it as much as other people.

 

[mistymoo]

I wish I could answer your question, but I've been experiencing the same issues :(

 

[locked*n*loaded]

Are you seriously telling me NO ONE knows about IV practices when I have seen it practically preached on this site?

No, I'm suggesting there may not be anyone at the moment actively using the site that knows about it. Not everyone comes here every day. People take breaks from this site.

 

[NoPoint2Life]

I avoided joining sasu For over a year because forums aren't really my thing and I don't like to socialize in real life so I figured why would I want to on the Internet? Finally, on a bad day I joined, and I have to say I kind of feel like you do,the threads I have made Don't get much of a response and I don't feel supported like other people here do. since you seem to want honesty here, I went back and looked at a few of your older posts. Some of your threads are on the long side, which I suppose deters people from reading them. You ask a lot of questions. You did come off a bit brash once or twice but you apologized afterwards just like you did here. maybe some of your stuff is a bit too Specific to generate a lot of replies? But I hear you. there was a thread recently about feeling like an outcast And I was surprised a few people said they felt like one even here which I totally related to.

 

[nottinghams]

No, I'm suggesting there may not be anyone at the moment actively using the site that knows about it. Not everyone comes here every day. People take breaks from this site.

But I post a lot....

I avoided joining sasu For over a year because forums aren't really my thing and I don't like to socialize in real life so I figured why would I want to on the Internet? Finally, on a bad day I joined, and I have to say I kind of feel like you do,the threads I have made Don't get much of a response and I don't feel supported like other people here do. since you seem to want honesty here, I went back and looked at a few of your older posts. Some of your threads are on the long side, which I suppose deters people from reading them. You ask a lot of questions. You did come off a bit brash once or twice but you apologized afterwards just like you did here. maybe some of your stuff is a bit too Specific to generate a lot of replies? But I hear you. there was a thread recently about feeling like an outcast And I was surprised a few people said they felt like one even here which I totally related to.

exactly. and there doesn't seem to be a reason that happens to some people. asking about IV is NOT specific lol. opiates maybe a little more? but not that much.

So what do I do? What do we do? Someone's answering questions just like ours, while we get left like this. Someone tell me what to do about it please cause I don't have direction. (And I don't want to be forced to pick a method with a higher fail rate cause I never find out)

 

[TheLastGreySky]

OK please hear me out

suddenly I have stopped getting support and messages, questions answered, replies and help from everybody on the forum. Last two threads decimated, nobody replied.

I see other people getting lots of support and gentle well wishes without trying very hard. this has not been the case for me. I think back to when people said they don't want to speak to me because of my attitude, brashness and rudeness, and the fact I am condescending and repetitive. I have apologized over and over, even making a thread about it even like I was some influencer.

I sweat buckets right now with effort trying to think of how I should word every message and every thread. I try so so hard. Nope. And I can't even ask what I did wrong now from people I was talking to, cause they're not talking to me anymore.

I want that support that I see others getting, i don't think its exclusive. And I don't know why it just vanished with me. I have tried so hard to mend it. and I really have no idea why or what to do about it.


I hope somehow I am not permanently pariah'd like this cause that would really suck and i wanna use the forum like everybody else. believe it or not, people actually give great resources here and I would hate to lose them.

I am so so sorry, for whatever it is I did wrong. I NEVER wanted to upset anybody on this forum.


Please, if someone can give me direction, have mercy. Please..

I had the same thing happen to me and it made me feel ostracized. It's just the way the site is sometimes.

 

[locked*n*loaded]

I just looked through this thread https://sanctioned-suicide.net/threads/are-iv-kits-any-good.177435/#post-2656545 you posted recently. Seems like you received plenty of responses to me, 19 total. I read through your responses, and you were quite dismissive to several people responding. All of the responses people gave seemed quite thoughtful to me. Maybe no one knows SPECIFICALLY about these IV kits you mention, so they can't comment specifically about them. Ever think of that? Instead, people have told you about what they DO KNOW to the best of their ability. So, it does seem that if no one responds to your posts (because they don't know SPECIFICALLY about what you're asking - about SPECIFIC Amazon IV kits), or even if they respond with information that they feel could be important, or useful, to you, neither is a good enough result to you. And then you express anger, even contempt, towards others because they're not giving you EXACTLY what you want? People here have enough shit in their lives. They don't need more shit. I don't blame the few that responded back to you telling you they will no longer respond to your inquiries. You could have just as easily responded back to those people in your threads with:

Thank you for your input. I appreciate what you said. I will look into the advice you provided. But, as for my immediate question, do you have any specific knowledge about the IV kits I mention and whether they contain everything I may need?

Instead, you chose to respond in a completely different way.

There's an old saying that says "you can catch more flies with honey than you can with vinegar". I suggest you take it to heart.

 

[nottinghams]

I just looked through this thread https://sanctioned-suicide.net/threads/are-iv-kits-any-good.177435/#post-2656545 you posted recently. Seems like you received plenty of responses to me, 19 total. I read through your responses, and you were quite dismissive to several people responding. All of the responses people gave seemed quite thoughtful to me. Maybe no one knows SPECIFICALLY about these IV kits you mention, so they can't comment specifically about them. Ever think of that? Instead, people have told you about what they DO KNOW to the best of their ability. So, it does seem that if no one responds to your posts (because they don't know SPECIFICALLY about what you're asking - about SPECIFIC Amazon IV kits), or even if they respond with information that they feel could be important, or useful, to you, neither is a good enough result to you. And then you express anger, even contempt, towards others because they're not giving you EXACTLY what you want? People here have enough shit in their lives. They don't need more shit. I don't blame the few that responded back to you telling you they will no longer respond to your inquiries. You could have just as easily responded back to those people in your threads with:

Thank you for your input. I appreciate what you said. I will look into the advice you provided. But, as for my immediate question, do you have any specific knowledge about the IV kits I mention and whether they contain everything I may need?

Instead, you chose to respond in a completely different way.

There's an old saying that says "you can catch more flies with honey than you can with vinegar". I suggest you take it to heart.

yeah, but that was some time ago. I have apologized. so. damn. much. I look like a fool.

Are you saying i am to be punished for my sins by from now on nobody responds to me? that really sucks.


if what i get on this forum isn't support, then its pointless to continue posting. even though my method is right there, I am gonna have to switch to something much more fundamental I can access immediately, with a higher likeihood to maim and fail. and that's not drama.

If someone instructs me how I can find what I need, here or on another site or resource, I will welcome that with open arms and do exactly as they say. But that needs to happen then.
Because I have no other resource than here, and no idea what to do now.


Please. please somebody. don't 'punish' me forever for 'what i did' cause its not drama when I say I don't know anything else. I don't wanna have to cut myself cause I'm too retarded to know anything else. Please, I welcome support.

 

[rozeske]

I have no idea about your method of choice but if I did I'm not sure I'd be too eager to reply for one seeing your responses to others (yes I've seen the apologies) but also seeing how you ask very specific Instructions on how to exactly do it, most people might not be comfortable to walk you through it step by step. That's just my assumption. I really don't think that people are holding a grudge and depriving you information to punish you.

 

[opheliaoveragain]

If someone instructs me how I can find what I need, here or on another site or resource, I will welcome that with open arms and do exactly as they say. But that needs to happen then.
Because I have no other resource than here, and no idea what to do now.

this is the issue. no one wants to do this, myself included. frankly it is not complicated re: shooting up and that's just facts.

I have no idea about your method of choice but if I did I'm not sure I'd be too eager to reply for one seeing your responses to others (yes I've seen the apologies) but also seeing how you ask very specific Instructions on how to exactly do it, most people might not be comfortable to walk you through it step by step. That's just my assumption. I really don't think that people are holding a grudge and depriving you information to punish you.

bingo

 

[nottinghams]

this is the issue. no one wants to do this, myself included. frankly it is not complicated re: shooting up and that's just facts.

bingo

people are saying all these things and how I behave and this and that. sure.

sure, but how do I fix it? genuine question. What would you have me do so people wanna answer me again? How would you want me to behave that would make you think about responding?
its not fair to say nobody wants to help me anymore, my behavior is bad, they don't feel comfortable and then hold that against me.
Lest this apparently continues.

no its not just shooting up. ive been told that's not enough, should use a cannula. and in fact a user left a helpful post about their own iv system, and I kid you not when I say my entire week including last week has been trying to figure if I need it or not.
but I haven't been able to find out cause user is inactive and apparently no one wants to reply.

Please. you can't have me stuck forever with half the forum not being 'comfortable' to reply because of past behavior and terrible phrasing. (Gosh, i'm trying so hard, throw a bone for me.) What would you like me to do?


(I am literally trying so hard to type this in a way that doesn't upset people viewing...)

 

[NoPoint2Life]

But I post a lot....

exactly. and there doesn't seem to be a reason that happens to some people. asking about IV is NOT specific lol. opiates maybe a little more? but not that much.

So what do I do? What do we do? Someone's answering questions just like ours, while we get left like this. Someone tell me what to do about it please cause I don't have direction. (And I don't want to be forced to pick a method with a higher fail rate cause I never find out)

You can totally correct me if I am wrong, but I feel like IVs are a specific topic not discussed too often here. With the way you want to do it. I am pretty sure it's hard to do it to yourself, which is what I saw at least one other person say, and therefore your questions about that might not get answered. I noticed that there are a ton of new members here. I can't imagine many will go back and look at your old posts Start fresh with your requests in ways that don't seem so harsh and maybe you will get answers without having to apologize for anything.

 

[yxmux]

This is basically me but on reddit lmao.

 

[nottinghams]

this is the issue. no one wants to do this, myself included. frankly it is not complicated re: shooting up and that's just facts.

bingo

Ophelia all this can be put really simply:

It's not fair - whatever I have done in the past - to pin this on me forever. and not ever respond.

That's why I ask, even though I know this pisses some people off, what you'd like to see in me if you wanted to respond again. I'm sorry if that pisses you off, but its not fair to condemn me for good.
Because that's what it is, let's face it.

Because I want to be told how I should word my posts to not be 'uncomfortable'. I want to get support like every other person for frankly something that is talked about: and like I said I have been trying for two whole weeks to get support with this ONE problem (not shooting up)

Because I really want to be afforded the chance to use this forum like everyone else can, including how I once did. (idk of another resource, do you?)

I mean, now I'm asking: please? Please don't leave me to this. Not cool.