Life_and_Death
Do what's best for you 🕯️ Sometimes I'm stressed
- Jul 1, 2020
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"You should get better for yourself" (please do not blame this person for what they said and yes, they understand mental health very well. It wasn't one of those "stupid" comments)
But I have nothing for myself. I don't have a high school diploma. I doubt I can get a job. Im in constant discomfort due to back pain. I have 1 friend, my 2 little brothers, my cats, my grampy. I don't talk to my friend often plus she's an online friend. My brothers are estranged I guess, stupid parents, them being underage and whatnot. My cats are cats, I mean I can tell they'd miss me but they're cats. And I don't talk to my Grampy often either. My SO..... Idk.... After he said sorry for gaming with his friends.... I need him... He's all I have, but clearly he's better off without me. I went from one abusive home to another (not in ref defence to my SO). I got abused/abandoned everywhere. Literally no one can handle me, I have no one, I have no future. I don't see any purpose living past today (I'm not going to I don't have a method on me. I wish I could though). I honestly can't seem to avoid abuse/abandonment, it makes me think I deserve it. I don't know why. I don't know what I did. But everyone hates me for some reason.
But I have nothing for myself. I don't have a high school diploma. I doubt I can get a job. Im in constant discomfort due to back pain. I have 1 friend, my 2 little brothers, my cats, my grampy. I don't talk to my friend often plus she's an online friend. My brothers are estranged I guess, stupid parents, them being underage and whatnot. My cats are cats, I mean I can tell they'd miss me but they're cats. And I don't talk to my Grampy often either. My SO..... Idk.... After he said sorry for gaming with his friends.... I need him... He's all I have, but clearly he's better off without me. I went from one abusive home to another (not in ref defence to my SO). I got abused/abandoned everywhere. Literally no one can handle me, I have no one, I have no future. I don't see any purpose living past today (I'm not going to I don't have a method on me. I wish I could though). I honestly can't seem to avoid abuse/abandonment, it makes me think I deserve it. I don't know why. I don't know what I did. But everyone hates me for some reason.