Dakota
19
- Nov 19, 2018
- 8
I'm here if you ever wanna talk about how you got here.I have my letter written. My fiancé told me not to leave a note if I did go through with it, but I did anyway. I know it'll be hard for him to read, but maybe he'll finally "hear" me in the end.
Yes, I would. Even videos for my family and friends. None crying at all, just explaining my reasons for killing myself and suggesting what I would like them to do with my things and how important it is for them not to be sad nor miss me because I just don't exist now or I've waken up because the simulation is over and I'll probably start a new life.
PS: I really do believe in the theory of the simulation
Are you talking about the matrix type simulation? Or are you referring to solipsism(not being able to prove anyone or anything exists outside of your own mind?) I fear both of these, especially solipsism.
maybe he'll finally "hear" me in the end.
This absolutely broke my heart!! I'm so sorry you haven't been heard in your life. I understand the frustration.For me, that's why I'm not leaving a note. IRL nobody really hears me, so my thought is "why bother talking now if you've dismissed me my entire life." It still baffles me as to why people think their values, choices, and preferences should be my values, choices, and preferences.
Once when I tried my own idea of alternate therapy, I asked the person to yell at me and then hold me so that I can learn that when someone is mad at me or I do something wrong, it's not permanent. They said they felt uncomfortable yelling at me. I said "okay." And then my eyes opened up: "Wait--it's that easy to accept someone's boundary?! You didn't have to defend yourself or face question after question about why you think the way you do. JFC, why can't people accept my boundary?! I've literally been told that I'm "not allowed to say No."
So, it's not a surprise that I'm so quiet; talking does no good. And if I wrote a book about my life, it wouldn't be surprising that I finally gave up and left this world. I don't really understand people.
same:(For me, that's why I'm not leaving a note. IRL nobody really hears me, so my thought is "why bother talking now if you've dismissed me my entire life." It still baffles me as to why people think their values, choices, and preferences should be my values, choices, and preferences.