Discussion I dont know how to feel now that i've gotten SN

[Wilt-On-High]

Well here I am.
my SN from BO has arrived today.
I have SN in my possession now.
After ranting and raving and then me putting months of work into Clues and stuff I found it.

But...I'm nervous and I'm feeling empty now.
Nervous because I don't know how It's going to feel when I'm taking it and dying. And also if I decide to CTB in the forest me becoming decomposed so badly and my parents probably going to have to identify my body.
Also my friends and family.
How are they going to be affected?
but wait....they don't care....nobody cares.
And I'm feeling empty because after feeling so much pain I've gone blank.
Part of me cares and part of me doesn't


I just wish I didn't have to die alone
I'm probably going to CTB on my birthday.

Thanks for reading.
I'll try to answer questions if anyone wants to ask me anything (I won't reply instantly but I'll try to)

Also I will not be giving any Sources.

 

[opheliaoveragain]

We're here for you. However much you want to post or talk before you go, just know people are here to listen.

 

[SVEN]

Just allow yourself to settle down and think about how you feel. There's no pressure on you to decide anything impulsively, in fact now that you have the means it may even allow you more time to fully analyse what your next move is.
Best wishes whatever you decide.

 

[Edu Ardanuy]

I know the feeling. Got my SN and now, well, maybe its just a matter of days until I try and end my life. Not sure if I'll chicken out, though

 

[HeartThatFeeds]

I understand the feeling, it's hard to deal with knowing you have something in your hands that could kill you at any minute, it's both daunting and relieving, I thought I'd feel something when I bought mine but I just felr nothing like you

 

[been__ready]

Just allow yourself to settle down and think about how you feel. There's no pressure on you to decide anything impulsively, in fact now that you have the means it may even allow you more time to fully analyse what your next move is.
Best wishes whatever you decide.

Great answer 🕊

I second this..