I don't have any reason to be alive.

[huntergirl14]

Hi
I don't have any will or any reason to be alive. I want to achieve many things, but I never will. I won't ever have a loving partner or a loving family.
I live in a shitty part of the world where everyone is a hypocrite and lies. Because I grew up in a trashy society all of that has been ingrained in my brain. I can escape from this lifestyle but have nothing to look forward to. Darkness not only exists outside but within as well, which I can never escape.
On the surface, you can say I have a good family, friends, and a career. But all of it is a facade.

It's been years since I'm feeling like this and I don't know what to do anymore.

 

[Sulyya]

I understand... the surface vs how it feels all the way inside.

 

[FuneralCry]

There certainly is no peace from suffering in this cruel world and that is just the reality, and at least to me there could never be a reason to prolong this. As humans we just exist to suffer, deteriorate and die, enduring days in an endless loop. It's very much true that you cannot trust and rely on humans, they are responsible for so much of the cruelty that exists here.

 

[huntergirl14]

There certainly is no peace from suffering in this cruel world and that is just the reality, and at least to me there could never be a reason to prolong this. As humans we just exist to suffer, deteriorate and die, enduring days in an endless loop. It's very much true that you cannot trust and rely on humans, they are responsible for so much of the cruelty that exists here.

I agree, its all meaning less

 

[stoopid]

I understand you well, I would try to move to somewhere else maybe. If you want to talk, I have around 1-2 weeks until I'm sleeping 4 ever.

 

[Brokensoulwalking]

I'm in a similar position, I understand the pain of carrying the darkness around every day and having to act like everything is OK cause I did what society seems as well in life.

 

[huntergirl14]

I understand you well, I would try to move to somewhere else maybe. If you want to talk, I have around 1-2 weeks until I'm sleeping 4 ever.

I'm new here, I dont know how to DM you. Because of my depression I already sleep 15 hours sometimes and it sucks to wake up.
I hope when I sleep forever, I don't wake up like that

 

[WorthlessCoward]

Same, bestieees!

I don't mind the inner darkness though, it comforts me

 

[Darkover]

there is no reason to be alive just a pointless meaningless existance soon to be gone for all time