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huntermellow
another bpd death statistic
- Aug 6, 2024
- 93
nothing makes me happy. i can't even participate in my interests and i can't remember the last time i actually enjoyed doing something i liked. i just rewatch the same shows all the time because i can't start anything new. i can't play any games cos it just feels like a chore. all i do is lay in bed and sleep and eat and watch the same shit over and over except i'm not even really watching it it's just used as background noise. i've been like this for so long. everything feels like a chore. there's literally nothing fun about living. everyday is the same. life isn't supposed to be like this. medication and therapy won't just suddenly make me start enjoying life and my hobbies. i'm all alone and i have nothing and no one keeping me here. going outside doesn't even make me feel better. what's the point if i have no one to do things with? this whole year has been so shit and it's not even over yet. the last time i was truly happy was january 10th and i'll never have that again