Venting I don't feel like living my life

[3xplo]

I've been dumped again yesterday. When I live with someone, in relationships, I live their life - it kinda helped. But I'm not able to have a long relationship with anyone, be it romantic or friendship. People lose interest in me, and are turned off by me being pessimistic, low-energy and dragging them down. I understand them. But the thing is - I don't want to change. This worlds asks too much of me, and I don't feel like I want to join the "fun". I'm 37, I've experienced enough. The only thing I'm waiting is to see how AI will change the world in the next 5 years. I hope some AI gets control over the world without humans controlling it, and either fixes the world, or kills everyone, or at least me. But I'm very close to just ending my life myself. I don't have friend or a partner. I'm spending my time distracting myself from thinking about life. I hate working, but I do the minimum to either not get fired or at least prolong being paid. If I lose my job, I will ask dad for money, and if he won't help, I'll just get a bank debts, I don't care what happens with me. I hate this.