Venting I don’t even know anymore

[lifewasawillow]

I just wanna leave this hellhole that is existence. I want to die but I'm too tired to do anything about it. I wasn't even supposed to be here right now. I wanna press a button and disappear. I feel so pathetic and I know there's so many people who feel like this but that doesn't make me feel any better. I don't even know what I'm writing at this point. I'm just so done. With life. With everything.

 

[leavingthesoultrap]

I am done. I dont have any aspirations anymore. I kinda want to be a degenerate before I CTB just because I dont care anymore. Or it might be my BPD acting out...

 

[lifewasawillow]

I am done. I dont have any aspirations anymore. I kinda want to be a degenerate before I CTB just because I dont care anymore. Or it might be my BPD acting out...

The not having any aspirations anymore is so real. People say I'm still so young and have my whole life ahead of me, it makes me sick. I feel like I've been here for centuries. I don't want a life ahead of me, I don't want a life full stop. I'm sorry you're feeling a similar way because it fucking sucks to be like this.

 

[leavingthesoultrap]

The not having any aspirations anymore is so real. People say I'm still so young and have my whole life ahead of me, it makes me sick. I feel like I've been here for centuries. I don't want a life ahead of me, I don't want a life full stop. I'm sorry you're feeling a similar way because it fucking sucks to be like this.

Yeah, when I was in my early 20s I had dreams and hopes but they got crushed so bad. There is nothing left anymore

 

[FuneralCry]

I understand, I hate how existence doesn't come with an eternal offswitch to just instantly cease existing in peace, I also see existence as very undesirable and I get that it's so dreadful feeling trapped here.

 

[F@#$]

I've wasted my life and it's far too late to fix it.

 

[IWishToDie]

I am done. I dont have any aspirations anymore. I kinda want to be a degenerate before I CTB just because I dont care anymore. Or it might be my BPD acting out...

Degenerate, how do you mean? Pleasure won't help us where we are going. I plan sometime to swallow my SN then sit on my knees like a Samurai meditating, finally collapsing.

 

[leavingthesoultrap]

Degenerate, how do you mean? Pleasure won't help us where we are going. I plan sometime to swallow my SN then sit on my knees like a Samurai meditating, finally collapsing.

I am antisocial by default, but sometimes I switch and I want to go out and drink and stuff....

 

[grungy自殺]

It's pretty unfortunate that i'm still living