Venting I don't even have a reason?

[kosmischerunfall]

Honestly I always cared what people thought about me, which created this mess and my suffering.
I want to be selfish and choose me what I desire!!
But when I decided to choose myself I had nothing to look at..
I think my suffering was distracting me from my endless boredom.
I have no goals, no joy, nothing
I have no reasons to do all of this..
Not the typically sad backstory..
I realised I dont want to live in this endless cycle of recyled, reused emotions, it's boring!!

 

[LastNite]

reused emotions is such a good way to describe it
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