I dont belong here

[FireFox]

I dont belong in this world and i feel like i am never going to find my place in this world.

I feel like life is not for me. I cant do it compete with people for jobs, be a real adult , living scares me more than death
Death for me feels like an escape from a world i dont belong in .

Everyday i feel like a burden on my family even though my family never say this. I am supppsed to be an independent woman in a relationship with a career and a place of my own. I am unemployed , no career and still living in the same neighbourhood since my childhood.

My family love me but i feel like i have let them down by not having it all.

Being a child of a single parent i feel like a bigger burden on my family

I am 23 and this is my life
I feel like i am destined to die by sucide.

 

[ZardozOmega]

I feel the same, and I'm just one year older, and male. I also should be independent. Job, car, house, romantic partner. But I'm just too weak, unstable and undisciplined to attain them. Life just isn't for everyone.

 

[BlackPoppet]

This is exactly how I feel. I'm also unemployed. I have no contact with my family and don't really have friends anymore for various reasons.
My family don't like me, because I had a drinking problem. They've never once visited me in London. Not once. They live in another part of the country. I'm 42 and life is getting increasingly difficult. I want a career as a Photographer and Entomologist but I fear it's too late. My mental health is bad and I can't cope.
I used to think I was too sensitive to live in this world, now I'm bitter and jaded with this world. I love people, I hate people and how vicious and nasty they can be. All my emotions are uncontrollable and I numb them away with pills and potions. I can't work because of my insomnia and BPD. It's awful. I don't get life. It's obscure. I am coming to an end. I can feel it. My partner, pets and myPagan path are what I'm sticking around for, for now. Also because I have hope. I'm well known for my everlasting resilience, but I can feel it slipping away. I totally get where you are coming from and I'm here for you if you need me . Love and hugs xx

 

[Kumachan]

I dont belong in this world and i feel like i am never going to find my place in this world.

I feel like life is not for me. I cant do it compete with people for jobs, be a real adult , living scares me more than death
Death for me feels like an escape from a world i dont belong in .

Everyday i feel like a burden on my family even though my family never say this. I am supppsed to be an independent woman in a relationship with a career and a place of my own. I am unemployed , no career and still living in the same neighbourhood since my childhood.

My family love me but i feel like i have let them down by not having it all.

Being a child of a single parent i feel like a bigger burden on my family

I am 23 and this is my life
I feel like i am destined to die by sucide.

there there(hugs you)

 

[Bct]

Not in exact situation but I could relate with your pain. Still having a job but anxiety & low self-esteem keeps me from being functional at my job. Being hopeless about my career future since I don't have marketable skills.

 

[FireFox]

This is exactly how I feel. I'm also unemployed. I have no contact with my family and don't really have friends anymore for various reasons.
My family don't like me, because I had a drinking problem. They've never once visited me in London. Not once. They live in another part of the country. I'm 42 and life is getting increasingly difficult. I want a career as a Photographer and Entomologist but I fear it's too late. My mental health is bad and I can't cope.
I used to think I was too sensitive to live in this world, now I'm bitter and jaded with this world. I love people, I hate people and how vicious and nasty they can be. All my emotions are uncontrollable and I numb them away with pills and potions. I can't work because of my insomnia and BPD. It's awful. I don't get life. It's obscure. I am coming to an end. I can feel it. My partner, pets and myPagan path are what I'm sticking around for, for now. Also because I have hope. I'm well known for my everlasting resilience, but I can feel it slipping away. I totally get where you are coming from and I'm here for you if you need me . Love and hugs xx

Sorry

Are you still sober . Addiction is awful i have seen it in my family so i am very sympathatic

Photograher is quite cool asipration. What photograpghy are you in to.

All i want is to escape. All i want is to pack a bag and move to different city in which no one knows who i am.
I feel like i am too weak for this world

 

[darkghost]

I dont belong in this world and i feel like i am never going to find my place in this world.

I feel like life is not for me. I cant do it compete with people for jobs, be a real adult , living scares me more than death
Death for me feels like an escape from a world i dont belong in .

Everyday i feel like a burden on my family even though my family never say this. I am supppsed to be an independent woman in a relationship with a career and a place of my own. I am unemployed , no career and still living in the same neighbourhood since my childhood.

My family love me but i feel like i have let them down by not having it all.

Being a child of a single parent i feel like a bigger burden on my family

I am 23 and this is my life
I feel like i am destined to die by sucide.

I feel the same. I think i am too weak to live in this world.

 

[FireFox]

Not in exact situation but I could relate with your pain. Still having a job but anxiety & low self-esteem keeps me from being functional at my job. Being hopeless about my career future since I don't have marketable skills.

@Bct what is your job?

 

[BlackPoppet]

Sorry

Are you still sober . Addiction is awful i have seen it in my family so i am very sympathatic

Photograher is quite cool asipration. What photograpghy are you in to.

All i want is to escape. All i want is to pack a bag and move to different city in which no one knows who i am.
I feel like i am too weak for this world

Yes I'm sober. I still have a few drinks every now and then, but I never get blackout drunk. I also used to be addicted to amphetamines, codeine, Benzos and Z drugs.
Yes addiction is awful. I'm glad I stopped drinking. I'm sorry you had to experience it too.
At the moment I'm into landscape photography but I'll do any kind of photography.

Yes I'm sober. I still have a few drinks every now and then, but I never get blackout drunk. I also used to be addicted to amphetamines, codeine, Benzos and Z drugs.
Yes addiction is awful. I'm glad I stopped drinking. I'm sorry you had to experience it too.
At the moment I'm into landscape photography but I'll do any kind of photography.

Here's a few examples of my photography. I love every aspect of photography. Digital, old style, etc.

 

[TheNorthernSilence]

I'm 10 years older and also have similar thoughts. Always an outcast, never good enough for anything or for anyone.

 

[Bct]

@Bct what is your job?

Handling administration at a small store, and also as a point of contact for customers (this responsibility was given to me due to my ex-coworker left). It really makes me anxious because I don't know when customers will contact. If something bad happens at customer's side, of course I'm the one who will facing it first. Some behind-the-scene troubles also make me anxious since it's also related to customers. Hopefully my explanation is clear enough.

 

[BlackPoppet]

Yes I'm sober. I still have a few drinks every now and then, but I never get blackout drunk. I also used to be addicted to amphetamines, codeine, Benzos and Z drugs.
Yes addiction is awful. I'm glad I stopped drinking. I'm sorry you had to experience it too.
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Here's a few examples of my photography. I love every aspect of photography. Digital, old style, etc.

I feel the same. I just want to run to safety, wherever that is.
Im too sensitive for this world. I'm trying to hold on, but it's hard.
A quote from Rihanna's song " Disturbia" ..... " release me from this curse I'm in, trying to maintain but I'm struggling "
I'm here if you need me and I hope you like my ratchet photography.

 

[FireFox]

Yes I'm sober. I still have a few drinks every now and then, but I never get blackout drunk. I also used to be addicted to amphetamines, codeine, Benzos and Z drugs.
Yes addiction is awful. I'm glad I stopped drinking. I'm sorry you had to experience it too.
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@BlackPoppet Beautiful photographs
I live in london too. I am enjoying the weather and i am loving the free buses as well.
How are you finding the lockdown?
Good for you that you are keeping sober.
Keep safe and enjoy your self.
The weather is lovely today

I feel the same. I just want to run to safety, wherever that is.
Im too sensitive for this world. I'm trying to hold on, but it's hard.
A quote from Rihanna's song " Disturbia" ..... " release me from this curse I'm in, trying to maintain but I'm struggling "
I'm here if you need me and I hope you like my ratchet photography.

@BlackPoppet I love rihanna and her music
Your photographs are amazing. I loved seeing them .Never stop your passion.

Sometimes i think maybe the mentally ill people are the sane ones and the sane people are really the mental ill.

i believe it is insane to believe life is worth living as well as procreating. Why have children knowing there is so much evil in this world. I want to be sterlised in the future.

Maybe mentally ill see a world others cant see.
Maybe people with depression can see a how dystopian our world really is and that no one wants to admit

I am really i am not normal

 

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@BlackPoppet

Sometimes i think maybe the mentally ill people are the sane ones and the sane people are really the mental ill.

Sometimes I wonder that too! Maybe it's the 'mentally unwell' people who see the reality of the situation.

 

[Alec]

I'm also 23, single and never dated anyone. Still living with my mother who's also a single parent. Don't have a job and don't have any career, I don't really even have any good education. I hope it helps you in some way, knowing you are not alone in this situation, I'm in the same boat with you. If I'm honest I also think I don't belong in this world. This world is just not for me, or I am not for this world. I love you!

Love,
—Alec.

Sometimes I wonder that too! Maybe it's the 'mentally unwell' people who see the reality of the situation.

I wander that all the time, I think it's true, it's us who are sane, and "normal" Functioning people are mentally ill.