violetsun
Member
- Jul 6, 2023
- 10
a couple weeks ago, i was hospitalized for a medical emergency from my chronic illness and had died for 90 seconds.
it was a very sudden change. my eyes were closed and everything was dark, then i felt my veins be filled with what i can only describe as warmth. similar to an iv solution given before an mri but without the pressure. i didn't feel my limbs, i didn't feel anything but warm. like the thought of me CTB hadn't even occurred to me during those 90 seconds. all i felt was warmth and calm, no other feeling or emotion.
i'm upset that they were able to revive me because i didn't want to be resuscitated. i missed when i died because that was the one time in my existence where i didn't feel pain or suffer from my illness or everything else in my life.
i wish they would allow people who are chronically ill to be euthanized because dying was the best experience i ever had.
it was a very sudden change. my eyes were closed and everything was dark, then i felt my veins be filled with what i can only describe as warmth. similar to an iv solution given before an mri but without the pressure. i didn't feel my limbs, i didn't feel anything but warm. like the thought of me CTB hadn't even occurred to me during those 90 seconds. all i felt was warmth and calm, no other feeling or emotion.
i'm upset that they were able to revive me because i didn't want to be resuscitated. i missed when i died because that was the one time in my existence where i didn't feel pain or suffer from my illness or everything else in my life.
i wish they would allow people who are chronically ill to be euthanized because dying was the best experience i ever had.