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- Nov 4, 2023
- 11
Hello. I started my journey of self discovering I might could be autistic one year and a half to two years ago. I had no idea this was a possibility before.
I started doing so many researches and seeing content of autistic women in general and I finally after so long feeling like no belonging in my life, did it. I felt like there was finally something that explained why I felt what I felt and why I was how I was.
Last month I was finally able to pay for a neuro evaluation, as asked by my psychiatrist.
It took 6 sessions and a lot of tests and questionnaires. They talk to some of my family members.
The results are: I have "autistic traits" that were developed by my early depression, anxiety and OCD, and I must do occupational therapy or Behavioral Cognitive Therapy to "work through this traits".
My Evaluator said she couldn't nt close a diagnostics of Autism Spectrum on me for some reasons. 1 - although all my report was full of autism signs, my mother's and brother's were totally different and indicate no autism.
2 - "Finally, the existence of stereotypical behaviors (?) inflexible adherence to long-standing routines (lie) highly limited and fixed interests in childhood(lie) or clear impairments in verbal and nonverbal communication throughout the developmental period were not reported."
3- The complaints reported by (my name) may indicate traits related to ASD (such as sensory hyper-reactivity, difficulty in social interaction, compensatory mechanisms, etc.), however, are insufficient for diagnostic support.
She also used arguments like "people with autism usually aren't bothered by changes of weather but you are" and "you are too empathetic for that".
Im completely destroyed. I felt like I finally found my place in the word, I had names for the things I felt, I belonged… and suddenly, no.
It is just depression, anxiety and OCD (oh to mention I have been treating this for 10+ years and they haven't vent gone away but what can I say I am not the professional)
These past few days have been hell for me since Im completely lost, I don't know what to do, I don't nt have motivation for nothing.
I wanted to know what you guys think about it. If I am being over dramatic and I should just stop complaining and accept the professionals diagnosis, or anything, really. I feel completely lost and disconnected and since that happened Ive been non verbal most part of the time, its been really hard to communicate and to identify my needs in this period of hardship, Im feeling tired, bothered and really exhausted.
Thank you for reading that. I can give any information if anyone wants to know something more about it, just ask.
If there are any autistic AFAB there that can help me with it I would really appreciate <3
I started doing so many researches and seeing content of autistic women in general and I finally after so long feeling like no belonging in my life, did it. I felt like there was finally something that explained why I felt what I felt and why I was how I was.
Last month I was finally able to pay for a neuro evaluation, as asked by my psychiatrist.
It took 6 sessions and a lot of tests and questionnaires. They talk to some of my family members.
The results are: I have "autistic traits" that were developed by my early depression, anxiety and OCD, and I must do occupational therapy or Behavioral Cognitive Therapy to "work through this traits".
My Evaluator said she couldn't nt close a diagnostics of Autism Spectrum on me for some reasons. 1 - although all my report was full of autism signs, my mother's and brother's were totally different and indicate no autism.
2 - "Finally, the existence of stereotypical behaviors (?) inflexible adherence to long-standing routines (lie) highly limited and fixed interests in childhood(lie) or clear impairments in verbal and nonverbal communication throughout the developmental period were not reported."
3- The complaints reported by (my name) may indicate traits related to ASD (such as sensory hyper-reactivity, difficulty in social interaction, compensatory mechanisms, etc.), however, are insufficient for diagnostic support.
She also used arguments like "people with autism usually aren't bothered by changes of weather but you are" and "you are too empathetic for that".
Im completely destroyed. I felt like I finally found my place in the word, I had names for the things I felt, I belonged… and suddenly, no.
It is just depression, anxiety and OCD (oh to mention I have been treating this for 10+ years and they haven't vent gone away but what can I say I am not the professional)
These past few days have been hell for me since Im completely lost, I don't know what to do, I don't nt have motivation for nothing.
I wanted to know what you guys think about it. If I am being over dramatic and I should just stop complaining and accept the professionals diagnosis, or anything, really. I feel completely lost and disconnected and since that happened Ive been non verbal most part of the time, its been really hard to communicate and to identify my needs in this period of hardship, Im feeling tired, bothered and really exhausted.
Thank you for reading that. I can give any information if anyone wants to know something more about it, just ask.
If there are any autistic AFAB there that can help me with it I would really appreciate <3