Venting I deep cleaned my room today

[angelhopes]

I deep cleaned my room today and it took me 4 hours to finish it. I also found some stuffs my ex gave to me and I felt so depressed throwing it away :( I feel like my soul is going out of my body throwing it all one by one and now I'm just on my room crying again.

 

[downthehole]

I get how having to dispose of those have been difficult but i trully hope being in that clean can make you feel better!

 

[RedHates]

I'm glad you're having the energy to clean your room like that, it's difficult to find the motivation to even start. I havent gone through all of the pictures of my ex even though I'm with someone a billion times better. I'm not sure why I'd want to keep them but I assume it's for a similar reason as to why you're having a difficult time getting rid of their things. What are the ways you're coping with losing that last bit of connection?

 

[angelhopes]

I'm glad you're having the energy to clean your room like that, it's difficult to find the motivation to even start. I havent gone through all of the pictures of my ex even though I'm with someone a billion times better. I'm not sure why I'd want to keep them but I assume it's for a similar reason as to why you're having a difficult time getting rid of their things. What are the ways you're coping with losing that last bit of connection?

Awww i truly understand what you mean. And so far im just taking everything slow and i try to not think about it anymore and im just assuming for the worse.

 

[RedHates]

I struggle when my memories are attached to objects. If the object disappears, so does that memory because I've always had a hard time remembering things. Maybe it would be better to just forget it... I don't know why I'd want to remember such a horrible time anyway.

 

[SASU-KE]

Proud of you OP. This means you have more time for posting till the next deep cleaning

No, but really. Once you finish having your home cleaned and then sit down to a nice cup of coffee or tea, it feels peaceful and nice.

 

[angelhopes]

Proud of you OP. This means you have more time for posting till the next deep cleaning

No, but really. Once you finish having your home cleaned and then sit down to a nice cup of coffee or tea, it feels peaceful and nice.

It really did help since another bad thing happened and I just broke down for 2 days and back to being numb again